spoon battery

spoon battery

Recently someone asked me what I was listening to on my iPod. I hesitated to answer because whatever it was they would jump to conclusions about me based on the music I was listening to – if I said The Beatles – I was living the past; if I said Lady Gaga – I was a real fag; if I said Coltrane – I was elitist pretentious; if I said – Chopin – I was was beyond comprehension.

pull yourself together

pull yourself together

There are some musicians or composers, who are always on my iPod. I think I have at least 10 days of listening without repeat on tap at any given time. Once a play list gets heard it gets replaced. Each play list, in general, is a mix of pop, jazz, classical.

spoon battery

spoon battery

Nearly always on one play list or the other is: The Beatles, The Stones, Van Morrison, Jacques Brel, Sinatra, John Coltrane, Miles Davis, Keith Jarrett, Chopin, Beethoven, Haydn, Schubert, Mendelssohn, Mozart. Frequently: The Animals, Procol Harum, Lou Reed, McCoy Tyner, Gabor Szabo, Bach, Dvorak. There’s one play list of Latino/French,/World Music music that often includes Otto, Osibisa, Santana, Boyo Boys, Piaf, Pizzicato Five.

When I was asked what I was listening, I replied: “Guess.” Because what they thought I was listening would tell me what they thought of me. They said Arcade Fire (am I a hipster?) when the truth was Killdozer.

my coming attractions

my coming attractions

June 24-28 – attending – Rosemary Aubert’s Fiction Writer’s How To

Loyalist willow not weeping for me

Loyalist willow not weeping for me

July 11 – Thursday – attending - The Beautiful and Damned

July 14 – Sunday – attending Cabaret Noir

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August 21 – Wednesday – attending – Blythe Spirit

August 22-25 – attending – FanExpo 2013

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September 25 – Wednesday – attending – Measure For Measure

possible cover for  City of Valleys

possible cover for
City of Valleys

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excerpt  – 54

City of Valleys

 April

Yves

Yves stood in front of the web camera. It was weightless, too small, to convey anything. With it he would be able to transmit himself to Tom. Tom would do the same.

The picture flickered, wasn’t crisp, but he made himself out.

“How’s my resolution?” He spoke into the telephone.

“Good enough to eat. How do I look?”

“Life-size.”

“Bitch.”

Yves leaned closer to Tom’s image on the monitor. Every thirty or so seconds the image refreshed itself. Tom leaned closer to his monitor.

“Not like having you here.”

“I can sort of see your lips move when you talk.”

“The monitor doesn’t smell like you though.”

“Strike one. How does it taste?”

“Tom, I miss you but not enough to blow a monitor.”

“Oh yeah. How about this?”

The image tilted. Tom sat naked. His erection loomed over his keyboard.

Yves hesitated.

“Come on. You think I talked you into this for your pretty face? Let’s see the appendage. Please.”

Yves stood and slipped his jeans to his knees.

“Oh yeah, baby. Love those white jockey shorts. So tight. Show me your ass.”

Yves felt foolish, but he turned around.

“Inch them down. Slow.”

He followed Tom’s instructions.

“Get a better camera or better lights.”

Yves faced the camera. It was Tom’s turn to obey. “That’s what I call meat, man. Oh yeah. Stroke it. Come on. You want to. Because I want you to.”

The stop motion of the web cam exchange meant that Yves heard Tom shoot before he saw it.

“How’s that?”

“Nice. But … ”

“What? Not going to shoot for me?”

“Too weird for me. You seem used to it though.”

“I miss you. That’s all.”

“Is it all set? You’ll be here in June.”

“You bet. It’s been ages since I left this burg for longer than a week. Don’t be surprised if I go through Prairie withdrawal syndrome. How’s life there?”

“I think we have the guys that firebombed Rainbow books.”

He filled Tom in on the encounter at Po’boys.

“His greed got him caught. If he hadn’t been there just then, you wouldn’t have spotted him.”

“Serves the fucker right. I gotta get a move on. I’ll tune in you in later.”

Steven

Steven lost to someone he had never heard of in a production he hadn’t heard about.

Evan picked up the award for original script. The show also won for best ensemble. One award remained. Best New Production.

Frank Donaldson, the presenter, walked stiffly to the stage, his wig slightly askew.

“Like Gladys Clark, for whom this award is named, I have been an outspoken critic of the Toronto theatre scene. I have always believed theatre should aim for excellence, and have supported and stood behind productions which exemplified that excellence. Each year I see the theatre community work to maintain and surpass expectations, and this year has been no exception.

“The nominees for Best New Production are: Baker’s Den for ‘Cream Winker;’ Miff and Batt for ‘Alice Clown;’ Quilt for ‘The Soul Delays;’ and Thicket for ‘Three-Quarter Time.’” He tore the envelope open. “And the award goes to Baker’s Den for ‘Cream Winker.’”

Karen Dado, the Artist Director for Baker’s Den, came to the stage. She was followed by Greg Hadly, the head of the Toronto Live Theatre Association.

Frank handed Karen the statuette.

“This comes as a surprise and a relief. All I can say is what everyone has said. I had a great text to work with, talented actors and … ”

“I will not.”

Frank and Greg were having a heated discussion at the side of the stage.

“Give me that.” Greg attempted to get the prize announcement card from him. “I know what it said and it … ”

“Trust me. It said Cream Winker.”

“What is it?” Karen looked to them.

“There was a slip-up. The winner of the Gladie is actually ‘Three-Quarter Time’.”

Frank stepped off the stage and up the aisle. “The fact that this artistic community would favor a mess like ‘Three-Quarter Time’ is no surprise to me. I never realized how far a company could ride on sympathy. Let me tell you Evan Daniels, they’re sorry for you.”

Greg presented Evan with the award. He got a standing ovation.

“Thank you. This isn’t how I expected to win, but I expected to win. So did all the others who were nominated. It’s a cliché, but a true one, that the other productions were creative, strong pieces. Some stronger than mine, but I am given to false displays of humility.

“After Mr. Donaldson’s performance piece, we have a new standard to live up to. I want to send a quick thank you to my great cast and crew. Monica, you are any director’s dream of a stage manager. Steven brought a quality to the play that made it sing for everyone who saw it. And David Walters brought a quality to my life that made it sing. …. Thank you.”

Kevin

Kevin hadn’t seen Therese for several months. So when she had called he knew it wasn’t to talk over old times. He stood outside the subway to wait for her.

“Therese?”

“Hi, Kevin.”

“How many months?”

“Six and counting.”

“Congratulations.”

They walked the Danforth to a Java Squared.

“You’re looking good. We can’t get enough of you on TV, you know. Whenever one of your videos comes up, Mitch hauls everyone in. You have come a long way so fast.”

“Thanks.”

“You had it in you to make it. Your folks must be right proud. You talk to them?”

“Nearly every Sunday.”

“Hear from Deb?”

“Nothing recent.”

“She was some fond of you.”

“You didn’t call to talk about her, did you?”

“I found this in his jacket.” She put the envelope of money on the table, “I made him tell me. He wanted to take care of us. It won’t happen again.”

“He’s hit on me before. And got more out of TknoSonk. Some story he handed them about me molesting kids in the steam room. Sound familiar?”

“Oh shit.”

“Crying won’t help.” Kevin wasn’t happy to see Therese fall apart.

“What do you know about anything? You come here free to get ahead. While Mitch has been here for year busting his ass to get a little ahead and stuck in the same rut. What can you tell me?”

“If he’s stuck, Therese, this isn’t the way out. It makes the rut deeper. That isn’t my fault.”

“It isn’t my fault either.”

“No one said it was.”

“What are you going to do about this?”

“It’s out of my hands.”

“What do you mean?”

“Remember that big fire around Christmas? Downtown.”

“Yeah.”

“Mitch and Hank were behind it.”

“No. No. you’re wrong. Mitch can’t be …. Gasoline. Oh God, he came home one day stinking of gas. Some spill down at the site, he said. No. What am I going to do?”

“Let the law take its course. Where’s he now?”

“Home. Told him I was off to Syl’s. I don’t know what to do. I have to warn him.”

“And what? Run away? To where?”

They walked in silence to the subway.

David

“Quite a to-do. I am glad I don’t own newspapers in Toronto or I would be shamed by that man.” Godwin looked at David’s Gladie. “It was like two cows colliding in a dark wood.”

David got into the limo after Godwin. Steven and Evan stood at the curb. Evan held a Gladie in each hand.

“Would you like a drive?” Godwin asked.

“No. I’m fine. Monica is getting us a taxi. Are you coming to the party at Lubba’s?”

“No. Perhaps David will. He has reason to celebrate.” Godwin closed the window.

“I’d like to celebrate, but not with a room full of people.”

“I hoped you would say that.” He spoke into the car intercom. “Home, please.”

The drive to Godwin’s house was brief. The house was huge, three floors, more bathrooms than he could count.

“Shall we have a small meal?”

David didn’t want to put the housekeeper to any trouble. He was a guest when he was at Godwin’s house, and to be waited on made him more uncomfortable.

“I have given Lukinda the night off. It would give me great pleasure to prepare a meal for you myself.”

“I can’t refuse that offer.”

“This is your home when you want it to be, David.”

“Too much dusting.”

“You would not have to dust.”

“I know, Godwin. I was joking.”

David made light of the Godwin’s invitations to move in with him. Not that the idea wasn’t attractive, but he enjoyed his own space. He’d lived on his own since he’d left home and he liked it.

“Why don’t you go up to the little salon while I prepare a treat for you?”

David went up the curved stairs to the second floor. The little salon was a large study between two bedrooms at the rear of the house. When he was at Godwin’s, this was where they spent most of their time. It had a large screen TV, stereo and one telephone. Godwin tried to confine business to an office on the first floor.

The low table in front of the sofa was set with plates and cutlery. A bottle of champaign sat in a cooler. David lit the candles and dimmed the lights.

He slipped his shoes off and relaxed on the couch.

“What? No music?” Godwin pushed a covered trolley into the room.

“I’m enjoying the silence.”

“The Nest buzzed too much?”

“I didn’t realize how much work it would take to get the Nest’s Fall show ready. How was your trip?”

“We are closer to signing the treaty. Once that is signed business can begin.”

“This smells good.” David lifted the cover.

“It will taste better than it smells.”

“A recipe you learned at your mother’s knee?”

David immediately regretted his remark. Godwin had lost most of his family in a political coup in Bhatuta. They had been hacked to pieces while he hid in a trench dug under the floor. Their blood had dripped down on him while he hid there for three days.

“No, and she would not have approved. Men in my tribe were not allowed to cook. Only to eat. You are the man in our tribe. My joy is to cook for you.”

sad plant

sad plant

Damned’s final show a Glad Day was a bitter-sweet night. When Zelda’s was destroyed by fire Glad stepped up to offer us a great new home to keep the series going. Ideal in many ways – in the downtown core & with a great space. We started off strong there with full house but gradually the attendance dropped but not the quality of our features – turns out many people found the flights of stairs too much – even more felt the space lacked amenities, mainly a real bar and food. Damned listened and found itself a new home – Q Space at College/Bathurst.

yule remains

yule remains

Hosted by DM Moore, the final show was a fitting farewell & thank you to Glad Day. First feature Elizabeth Ruth read from her new book Matadora. The story of a female bullfighter was one she felt compelled to research then write. Unconsciously, I think, she took a matador stance to read – one hand behind her back & the other holding her book almost like an espada. The sections she read were evocative and direct ‘frail stalks of sunflowers creaking underfoot;’ ‘teased his fingers along each of the carved letters’ & also called up the spirit of Lorca ‘a lamp shone through a blue silk shade turning her body into a bruise.’ Soon to be on my Kindle (once I clear off some of 50 other books on it now)

crappy Ikea planter

crappy Ikea planters

Due to illness our second feature couldn’t make to the show so DM opted to have the second spot filled by the open stagers; DM started us off with a fine rendering of Every time I Say Goodbye (she needs to sing more often); Marcy Rogers did another great monologue from Lesbians Who Wear Lipstick the Middle ages ‘I don’t need a dick, man, I play guitar!’ I followed with a new piece ‘The Gate of the Kiss’ & some old pieces from my Go Bump set. Philip Cairns read two pieces – one about the Hell of call-centre life & another about the Hell of dating life: ‘why do I keep falling for pretty boys who don’t want me.’ After Philip, Cate McKim took a rare step on to the open stage for a superb rending of After The Gold Rush (she needs to sing more often); the set closed with Lizzie Violet who first warmed us up with summer memories ‘melting Popsicle dripping on grass stained jeans’ then cooled us down with Thirteen Nails in The Coffin.’ See her pics of the show: BuDa pics.

no tan line

no tan line

Final feature Tania Joy entertained with great songs form her ep ‘I’ll be Around.’ She has a comfortable stage presence, warm delivery & voice – which some in the audience found reminiscent of Joan Armatrading. Her songs were emotional, uplifting and direct with touches of gospel, old school country and folk.

We folded up our chairs and headed out into the rain. Join The Beautiful at our new location Q Space when Philip Cairns hosts our kick off show there July 11.

my coming attractions

my coming attractions

June 24-28 – attending – Rosemary Aubert’s Fiction Writer’s How To

there's a novel at the end of that tunnel

there’s a novel at the end of that tunnel

July 14 – Sunday – attending Cabaret Noir

August 22-25 – attending – FanExpo 2013

possible cover for  City of Valleys

possible cover for
City of Valleys

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excerpt  – 53

 

City of Valleys

 

April

 

David

 

The phone rang.

“You ready humpie.” Godwin giggled.

“I’ll be right down.”

He flicked a thread off the jacket. The shine from the green satin lapels played along his cheeks in the mirror.

“You look splendid, babe.” Godwin pinned a red rose into David’s lapel.

They got into the limo.

“Excited?”

“I can’t stop saying ‘This is my first time. Please be gentle.’”

Godwin fondled David’s cock through his pants till it was hard.

“Ooh, babe.” He unzipped David’s pants.

The car stopped at a red light, and people attempted to peer through the frosted windows. That they might make out what went on made David harder. Godwin hummed as he worked. The vibration of the hum reached down to his balls, and as his sperm rose, he lifted his ass to thrust into Godwin’s mouth.

Godwin slipped his hand under David’s ass and squeezed hard. Three pumps and a load jolted out of him.

“You needed that babe, and you need this too.” Godwin reached for a box of wet naps. He was always fastidious about clean up after. “You do me later. I want to dream about it till then.”

This was another of Godwin’s traits, not to demand reciprocation right away. He had David two or three times, before he let for David have him. David didn’t mind, and the wait tantalized.

He kissed Godwin. Godwin kissed back fervently.

“David, you are the perfect man for me. Perfect.”

“You are too easy to please.”

“I am happy for you. To win this prize.”

“Godwin, I haven’t won it yet.”

“You will. You will because you are the best. H’matta will smile upon you.”

“Thanks.”

David kissed the top of Godwin’s head. So this is what it was like to be the best.

 

Kevin

 

Kevin had the cash in his pocket. More money than he’d had at one time tucked tight into an envelope. This was the last time.

Mitch agreed to meet him at Po’boys, as long as it wasn’t one of those fag joints. The smirk on his face made Kevin sick. He was tempted to walk away. Let Mitch go to the press. What the hell, he was gay, big deal. But for him to be outed wouldn’t fit into Teddi’s plans.

“You got it?”

“What do you think?”

Mitch waved the waitress over and ordered a couple of drafts. “My treat, Kev.”

Kevin was about to pass the envelope when Yves arrived. After quick introductions Yves left eager to try his new web camera.

Kevin gave the money to Mitch. “I gotta get going.”

“Drinks haven’t arrived.”

“You enjoy them. The less time …”

“Yeah. Big shot can’t face us anymore. Remember, I know …”

“Mitch, you know shit. This is the last time you’ll get money out of me.”

“Yeah, sure. You gotta learn to share, that’s all I’m asking Kev, me boy. I’ll see you go back to nowhere if you get greedy. You understand?”

“Understand this Mitch, next time money passes between us it’ll be to T, and not to you.”

“Hoo hoo, that’ll be the day.”

The draft arrived and Mitch downed one and left. He waved down a cab and disappeared.

Kevin headed home. He had to tell Teddi. With the news of Port Frolic, there wasn’t time. He couldn’t deal with this on his own. He’d talk with Mario to see how Teddi might want to handle it. Yves stopped him, he was sure that Mitch was behind the fire at bookstore.

“Couldn’t be. Like ….” Christ this was all he needed. His head began to pound.

“What?”

“Let’s talk to someone first, before you accuse anyone.”

“What are you afraid of?’

“We gotta talk to someone who knows the law. What about that lawyer friend of yours? Mark? ”

“We don’t need a lawyer. He does.”

They stood on the steps to the house.

“He’s family. Yves I don’t want to …”

“The jerk that tossed you out? You want to protect him?”

“It’s not that, but ….” Events were out of his hands. “Why would he do … fuck …” He began to cry.

“What’s ‘e done to you?”

“He threatened to go to the papers. About me being gay, and say I’d molested some kids in his building and fuck … I’ve been paying him off … I have too much to lose.”

He threw up.

“You’re right, we need cooler heads than ours. Don’t worry. It’ll be all right.”

“We could call that phone line for police tips. You don’t have to give your name. Just say Mitch is the guy behind that fire.”

“There was two of them. Didn’t you see that stuff on TV?”

Kevin didn’t want to admit how little he was aware of the world outside of 4Give.

“Yves, I’ve been too busy for cartoons, let alone the news.”

“There’s security camera footage from the subway station. I have it somewhere.”

Kevin sat in the living room while Yves found the video.

“‘Ere it is.”

Despite the grainy footage there was no doubt it was Mitch.

“Could be Mitch. Could be anyone, mind you.”

“What about the other guy?”

“Shit! Hank Mott! He and Mitch work together.”

Kevin rubbed his stomach. It ached.

“Afraid to be a tattle-tale?”

“Yeah, that’s part of it.”

“Take a good look at what they did.”

Footage of the fire followed the subway footage.

“Lucky no one died. But he didn’t care about that, did he?”

“There’s his family.”

“Do them a favor.”

“It isn’t right. He’s family. He’s …”

“He’s a blackmailing coward. He’s a bully. I know who he is. I’m not waiting while you make up your mind.”

Yves took a business card from the tape box.

“Who are you calling?”

“Stan Turner. He’ll know what to do. Hello Arson Squad? Can I speak with Mr. Turner. It’s Yves LaPointe…. I see … I have some information about the LeBond fire … Have him call me …. Yes, he has my number …. Thanks.”

“I hope this is the right thing. Something feels bad about all this, Yves. Real bad.”

“That’s just your fear, Kevin.”

 

Steven

 

Steven walked the steps to the Beau Place Theatre. He hadn’t been here since it was reopened several years ago, after many millions of dollars of taxpayers’ money went to refurbish the former vaudeville house. Restored to Art Deco glory, no company in the city could afford to run shows there.

It had been the spot for the Gladies since it reopened. Televised this year, for the first time, they promised to have more zing than past years.

“On your own?”

“Yep. Luke’s not up to crowds. How’s the new show, Evan?”

“Fine. How’s the sci-fi shoot?”

“Good.”

The lobby was crowded with live theatre glitteratti. A waiter brought them drinks. Jasper Yorke of the Arts Channel cornered people for sound bites. Beside him was Frank Donaldson, reviewer for Squint, one of the sponsors of the awards. They talked to Annie Grable whose play was nominated for several awards.

“Excuse me.” Evan stepped between Jasper and Annie. “Mr. Donaldson, how nice to see you here.”

Jasper signaled for the camera to keep rolling.

“We were interviewing Miss Grable, if you don’t mind.” Frank gave a tiny smile.

“I wanted to thank you for your review of Three-Quarter Time. I’d like you to meet Steven Thomas, the young actor whose meat you couldn’t take your eyes off.”

A hush settled in a small circle around them. Evan pulled Steve into camera range.

“This isn’t the place …”

“Mr. Donaldson, please. It’s been months since your sweet commentary on the production. He also had sweet comments about yours, didn’t he Annie?”

“Par for the course Evan.”

“Annie, you are so well-balanced. I am not. Donaldson for some reason people have been afraid to stand up to you.”

Frank backed from the camera.

“Evan.” Jasper’s smile froze. “We can arrange a discussion between the two of you on Talking Arts.”

“Arrange this.” Evens threw his drink into Frank’s face.

“That is assault! Someone call the police!”

“Too bad there’s no Drama Police to call when some asshole critic thinks he can beat us up when he feels like it.”

Steven didn’t know what to do. He grabbed Evan by the arm.

“Let’s get out of here. Before you do more damage.”

“Damage? What sort of damage can this do me? After the attempts he’s made to destroy me, you think I care what anyone says about this? One other thing …” Evan reached out and nabbed the edge of Frank’s hair and yanked it. It came off. “Time you got a new wig, honey.”

He tossed the wig over his shoulder and entered the theater.

 

Kevin

 

Kevin paced his living room, the four corners, skirted the TV, the ghetto-blaster, grabbed a pop from the fridge and forgot to open it.

He pictured Mitch laughing at him. No matter what he did, Mitch won. He was the heterosexual, Kevin was the useless little faggot. Queers always lost. They got beaten by guys who got off with the claim the fag came onto them, looked at them, said hello, lived too close, might have attacked some child in the future, and deserved to be offed now to protect that child.

He called Teddi.

“Teddi, I gotta tell you something before I chicken out.”

“Sounds serious. You’re not sick?”

“No, no. It’s that … someone has asked me for money or he’d …”

“That fucker Mitch.”

“What! You knew?”

“He came to us ages ago. I told him to stay away from you. Greedy bastard!”

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

“Kevin, we look after our guys. That’s part of my job.”

“Then you have your work cut out for you. Yves recognized Mitch as one of the guys who started that big fire last December. The one at the bookstore.”

“Shit. If you’d kept your hands to yourself in that sauna … ”

“Teddi! You believed that? Jesus! I thought … I trusted you thought better of me than that.”

He hung up and shut off the ringer.

 

David

 

David was both apprehensive and eager when the theatre darkened. Awards were given out, speeches made, musical numbers and sketches rose and fell, applause and a few hoots. Each time “Three-Quarter Time” was mentioned, Godwin squeezed David’s hand. When his name was called for Best Costume, he didn’t believe his ears.

On stage, he hefted the award in both hands.

“Considering how simple my work was, I am stunned to win this. I have to thank Evan for the opportunity …. and of course Steven Thomas for looking good in, and out, of my designs. Thank you.”

He was led off stage for some photos. Then he returned to his seat.

“That was very sweet.” Godwin leaned close. “To watch you up there to our applause and adulation. Makes me proud for you.”

“Thanks.”

The award was a lumpish female figure on tiptoe. He considered where to put it. Home or office? Office was be the best for commercial purposes. He could always throw it at Zetta in a hissy fit.

 

I'm all for Olympic wrestling

I’m all for Olympic wrestling

trash for the cure

trash for the cure

At Cabaret Noir we celebrated Cate McKim’s (Morecowbell) birthday. Cate’s blog is one of the ones that inspired me to keep on bloggin’. Not that I would have stopped, but her reviews of local arts, exhibits, live theatre & cd’s launches, showed me there was a place for that sort of grass roots stuff. There are enough blogs reviewing books, movies, TV etc. – but, as far as I could tell, no one was writing about local readings.

People read reviews to decide what they want to see or read so who wants reviews of what are essentially one time events? The participants for starters, & people who have missed the event. So I took up the challenge & have been enjoying that structure.

let me in

let me in

Another blog that has been an inspiration for me is Wide Awake But Dreaming. Cassidy blogs nearly daily about the travails of writing. Often funny & always insightful – Cassidy’s book ‘Her Demonic Majesty’ is a great read, too.

two seats no waiting

two seats no waiting

Here’s one of the pieces I read at Noir.

Black

I was sitting there

after my quick hit at the open mic

putting my crumpled pages away

when the feature sat at my table

‘nice stuff

but you don’t wear enough black

for anyone to take you seriously

as a deep spoken word artist

I’m telling you this for your own good

because you got what it takes

you have to take that next step

‘til you commit to the black

no one will take you seriously’

I clutched my coat

blundered into the rain

well    unfortunately    it wasn’t raining

my feet went fast as they could past

indifferent people

who didn’t sense me crumble inside

as I made my escape to the subway

home quivering    fearful

I stumbled up the stairs

fumbled open the door to my tiny attic room

threw myself on my little bed

sobbing and shuddering with shame

what was I going to do

was it time to conform

with the nonconformists

if I really want

to taste the vibrant sting of success

that laced their sets

not wanting to give in

yet yearning for the satisfying comfort

full and total acceptance would bring

I cried myself to sleep

the very next day

I searched through vintage clothing stores

in Kensington    Queen east and west

shoved seniors aside at Value Village

tripped them at Goodwill

‘that mottled black brackish

turtle neck is mine gramma’

then I decided to go one step beyond

and hit the tanning salons

I’d show them

not only would I wear the brightest black

I’d become black

that would do the trick

then I could throw down

harsh slam verses about

empty purses

violating nurses mysteriously

and finally be taken seriously

my coming attractions

my coming attractions

June 13 – Thursday – attending – The Beautiful and The Damned

damnsmall

June 24-28 – attending – Rosemary Aubert’s Fiction Writer’s How To

getting the L out of Loyalist

getting the L out of Loyalist

July 14 – Sunday – attending Cabaret Noir

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August 22-25 – attending – FanExpo 2013

possible cover for  City of Valleys

possible cover for
City of Valleys

links to previous excerpts

excerpt  – 52

City of Valleys

April

Kevin

Kevin had Mitch call back so he could get rid of Mario. Ten minutes later, the phone rang again.

“What do you want Mitch?”

“The usual.”

“No.”

“Tough talk. Noon today.”

“Screw you.”

“Isn’t it the other way around? When I go to the press, I’ll have to get that right. Won’t I? You take it up the ass?”

“Fuck you!” Kevin slammed the receiver down. It rang instantly.

“By the way, make it five grand this time. T’s preggers.”

The last time he’d sworn to stop it. Mitch had picked him up at the bank in his van. He confronted him.

“This fits in with the holy Rev Frenwin.”

“He says the sinner shall pay for his sins, first to those he has sinned against and then to God. This is your payment to me.”

“This isn’t a sin?”

“Listen, Kevin me boy, the Good Book says not to suffer an abomination to live. I’m letting you off lucky.”

“Well your luck’s run out. This is last time you’ll get anything out of this abomination.” Kevin opened the van door. Mitch grabbed the front of his shirt.

“Listen, Kev. What you are is sick. And this sickness is going to destroy all of us. All mankind. You brought AIDS down upon us. Killing innocents! Filth like you poisons the very air we breath.”

“And this will make the air cleaner?”

“No, but it’ll buy an air conditioner. Not a word in the Good Book about who gets the wages of sin. Might as well be a God-fearing man like me. Get the fuck out of here.” He shoved Kevin out the door.

As Mitch drove off, Kevin swore never to give into him again.

Steven

Steven lifted a tuxedo from the rack in the Dynosun costume department.

“What the verdict Becky?”

“Perfect. Try it on in case it needs any work. How’s it feel to be nominated?”

“What can I say? I was happy. I deserve it.”

Deserve it? After the Hell Tim had put him through, he deserved more than a second-hand tux. The fact that the show had any nominations came as a surprise. Frank Donaldson had all his reviews of the nominated productions reprinted. In his commentary on the nominations, Donaldson was livid to see Thicket get any attention.

“You accept that summer shoot? Craig’s signed on.”

“The Mexican thing? No, too hot for my blood, and I want to chill out with my man for a few months. It’ll be nice to not worry about … ouch …” Becky pricked him with a pin. “Stuff like this for a while.’

“The Kiark coming back for another season makes us all happy. Very happy. Good thing Tanya kept them from killing you off to end this season.”

“Tanya has script in-put?”

It didn’t surprise him that she did. Good for her. One day he’d have that kind of power.

“Oh yeah. Craig’s out. Dies in Episode Two, Season Two.”

“Guess she’s had her fun with him.”

“Nah. He wants more money since he got the lead in that Mexican thing. Good director. Philip Branck. Two Oscar noms.”

“Well, well.” That role had been offered to him. He should have looked at the script. But Branck as director hadn’t been mentioned when it was offered to him.

“Hugo Boss couldn’t match this.”

Steven stood at the mirror.

“Is there a Dynosun logo on the back?”

Yves

Yves sat at his monitor. Under the picture of Jake, he had taped a photo of him and Tom together. Not that he needed the reminder, but their smiles lit up the room.

There was a new post from Tom.

“Yves, miss you. Make a decision. Who goes where?”

“Who goes where?” A good question. He had invited Tom to spend Gay Pride week in Toronto. The notion of him in Winnipeg didn’t make sense. Toronto was home. It held his soul, his energy. He didn’t want to grow old any where else but here in this house.

He wouldn’t pressure Tom to move. It had to be a natural decision. God! Tom there to live with him! Not a bad idea. Was it time for the web cam? The one in his monitor was too limited for what he and Tom wanted to enjoy. They were on sale this week at the computer shop on his way to the subway.

He posted back:

“I have to see you right now. Teleport is too slow. Or are you all tied up?”

Kevin

Kevin was glad to be with the rest of 4Give. They’d all enjoyed the week apart while Teddi was out of town.

“Port Frolic was awesome.” DJ bobbed up and down. “The rides are serious fun, and the arcades are fucking ….”

Kevin tuned DJ out. That Teddi had taken anyone with her was news to him. She’d even left Mario behind.

“Rides? What rides did you take other than …”

“Listen, Rik, mind your fucking business. Okay.”

“Okay DJ, okay. Like man, we’ve all taken that ride.”

“I said mind your …”

“He’s right, DJ.”

“Chris, butt out.” DJ lifted his fists.

“Control your joy at seeing each other.”

“Too bad you didn’t tag along, Mario.”

“Someone has to answer the phone.”

“What’s the big news?”

“Not mine to tell, Rik. Teddi’s waiting in Studio 4B.”

They headed down the hall.

“Kevin, a word?”

Maybe this was a chance to tell Mario about Mitch.

“About this morning … I meant what I said and … There’s one thing I got to know.”

“What?”

“You and Stewart? Do you …. love him?”

“Come on you two. You can get caught up later.” Chris shouted down the hall.

Once they were settled around the sound booth, Teddi slipped a CD into the player. It was a re-mix of one of the songs they had cut. She handed them CD’s.

“This will be the next single.”

“Shit! You got the Benzi Brother to do this? Wild.”

“They owed me a favor, Rik. We headline the Port Frolic Fiftieth Anniversary. ‘Trust’ will break within the month, and by July Fourth you will the hottest Canadian name since … ”

“Bryan At-oms.”

“Celine On-et-on.”

“Both of the above. Happy I’m back?” Teddi stretched her arms out and a group hug ensued. “We leave next week for a small cross-country tour.”

“Are there enough malls to do that?”

“Kevin, more than enough. In fact we end on the east coast. McCaskill’s Coliseum in … ”

“Halifax!”

“You’ll get to see your folks.”

“When do we start?”

“Here’s the dates.” Mario handed them itineraries.

“Yikes, not much time to breath here.”

“You won’t need to breath Rik.”

“PopMax is sending a camera crew along.”

“Great. Shots of us slamming motel doors shut in their faces.”

“Exactly. Lots of personal appearances. You’ll be having lunch with lucky winners from coast to coast. By the time this tour is over, 4Give will be a household word.”

“We won’t be here for the last weekend of June?”

“No, Kevin. After the east coast gig we fly direct to Port Frolic to get ready for that show.”

Kevin was disappointed. He and Stewart had plans for Gay Pride, which fell on that last weekend.

“It’s … ”

“What?”

“I though we part of that benefit during Pride Week .”

The room went silent.

Steven

“Nice.”

“I haven’t been this formal off stage.” Steven zipped the tuxedo into the garment bag. “How are things with the Scottish play?”

“Postponed. Medusa instead.” Monica arched her eyebrows. “Evan was very disappointed that you didn’t stick with it.”

Steven went to the waiting room. He wanted to find out if Doctor Blake had held anything back about Luke.

“You can go in, Steven. See you at the Gladies.”

Steven sat opposite Doctor Blake.

“What brings you in today, Steven. More treatment center referrals?”

“Treatment center?”

“Luke was in the other day to get a list from me.”

“Was he his usual self?”

“Oh yes. His last tests were fine. Why?”

“He’s been very moody … He’s not having a problem that I don’t know about?”

“The referrals weren’t for you?”

“No. Our conversations become fights. It’s like walking into a wall that wasn’t there before. Could the assault have affected him like that?”

“Steven, a concussion can have side effects.”

“Is there any way to check?”

“Tests? Cat scan. MRI. All of these have been clean for Luke. Psychological isn’t my field. He was fine the other day. Happy in fact. You want me to talk to him?”

“What good would that do? I didn’t know he’d been here this week.”

“It’s not unusual for couples to drift apart, come together, drift apart. Part of the flow of relationships. This sounds like conventional stuff to me. Be patient. How’s the sex life?”

“When it happens, great. He’s not crazy about condoms, but safety first.”

“I haven’t met anyone who viewed protection as an enhancement to their sex life. It takes getting used to. Possibly you need couple’s counseling. I know a good therapist. I’ll get Monica to give you his card.”

He walked Steven to Monica’s desk and got the card.

“Keep an eye open, but not too open. It’s nothing. Nothing at all.”

“Thanks, Doc.” Steven put the card into his pocket. He hoped Doctor Blake was right.

David

David took a deep breath outside of Hornet Nest. Too much estrogen. Was that sexist? He had time to get to the Gladies. His Three-Quarter Time designs hadn’t got much notice, so the nomination was a surprise. The fact that the production had any nominations was a surprise. Nominations for best actor, new play, light design, direction and costume.

He fretted as he changed at his place. What was right for a successful designer to wear at an important function? He had to cut the right figure. Not too stern, not too flamboyant.

A plain black sport-coat. Classic. A few minutes to baste on new lapels. His sewing machine was set to go. He grabbed a swatch of a pale green geometric pattern.

He had considered a solo appearance, but wanted to show Evan that he didn’t hold a flame for anyone, not even Kevin. Once he accepted Godwin’s frequent giggles as a customary response, things between them became easier. The first time they had sex wasn’t exceptional, but it was pleasurable.

Godwin was black in a different way. David was brown-black while Godwin was ebony-black. Godwin’s cock was short, thick and uncut. He came with ease, so sex didn’t drag on or get uncomfortable. David’s own orgasm took longer which pleased Godwin, who enjoyed the chance to suck cock more than David did.

Turns out Godwin’s money was more of a problem than his race.

Kevin

Was that Kevin in Po’boys Pub? Yves peered in the window. It was Kevin with some man.

He went in to pay his regards.

“Ello, Kevin. This were you stop for a few on the way ‘ome?”

“Uh … yes. Uh … Yves. You’ve met my cousin Mitch.”

In the dim of the bar it was hard to make out the other man’s face. He moved deeper into shadow, as Yves reached over to shake his hand.

“Pleased to met you.”

“Yves is my landlord.”

“Kevin says he likes your place.” Mitch leaned forward.

“He’s not there all that often.”

“Pop stars don’t set roots.” Mitch lit a cigarette.

“See you later. I just splurged on a web cam. Can’t wait to get it set up.”

Yves left. Where had he seen that face before? The match lit the cigarette. The flame flickered and went out. Match, flicker, face. Match, flicker, face.

Mon Dieu! He stopped in his tracks. The fire! That was the fucker who started the fire. He spun on his heel to go back to Po’boys. Kevin was at the corner.

“That was ‘im. Where did ‘e go?”

“What him, Yves?”

“The guy who torched Rainbow Books. That’s ‘im. Where is ‘e?”

“Take it easy, Yves. How can you be so positive?”

“Some t’ings you never forget. His face. I know that face!”

“Couldn’t be. Like ….”

“What?”

“Let’s talk to someone first, before you accuse anyone.”

“What are you afraid of?”

me May 2013

me May 2013

not getting into my drawers

not getting into my drawers

Lizzie Violet’s June Noir officially kicked off summer with a night of sizzling poets, musicians, & burlesque to a packed and eager audience. First feature Ellie Anderson stepped out from behind her guitar with a warm set of poems. She openly shares her struggles with fame, body image & sexuality without letting politics or anger get in the way. At times playful: ‘I would find June in the middle of winter’ -  at times ironic ‘I would sell my integrity at half price to those who can raise me to the right hight’ – at times heartbreaking ‘on the day I met you it snowed – I didn’t know till then how could love could be.’

not sleeping together

not sleeping together

Next up was Blue Venus – traffic delays didn’t faze them. Andrea, with guitarist Jessica Stuart, did a fine summery set of original work. Their sound is refreshing without losing emotional impact. A jazzy bounce supports each piece. Andrea’s warm vocal and fine violin playing give Venus a distinct sound. Jessica adds a frisky guitar style that would fit into Paris jazz spots in the 30’s.

Final, official features, Frenchie Fatale did a simmering turn to When You Got It, Flaunt It. She’s got it and knows how to flaunt it in fine burlesque style – ending with a some traditional tassel twirling – like all good burlesque she left us wanting more.

not even sitting together

not even sitting together

After the features we were treated to an extended open stage hosted by Blanche (David Bateman) to celebrate Kate’s (morecowbell) birthday. I did a couple of pieces but sadly had to leave by 10:30 so I missed the final performers.

my coming attractions

my coming attractions

June 13 – Thursday – attending – The Beautiful and The Damned

damnsmall

June 24-28 – attending – Rosemary Aubert’s Fiction Writer’s How To

July 14 – Sunday – attending Cabaret Noir

August 22-25 – attending – FanExpo 2013

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possible cover for
City of Valleys

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excerpt 51 – brings us up to page 354 of my 502 page manuscript

 

City of Valleys

 

April

 

Kevin

 

Kevin slipped out of the bed. Stewart slept beside him. The floor was cool. The burble of the fish tanks covered the squeaks as he darted to the bathroom.

There was his toothbrush beside Stewart’s toothbrush. His home away from home. He smiled in the mirror.

“Another day another holler.” No holler today. He got to sleep over at Stewart’s when Teddi didn’t have something set for  the next day. Not that he had the day off, but no appearances or numbers to go over.

He flexed and liked the way his body had become solid. Dance routines and weight work had brought his body out of teenage softness into TV hardness. TV hardness was appealing under lights and that sold records. It was as if the body wasn’t his.

A little tuft of beard along his jaw line, very short hair with highlights along the ears. No tattoos or piercings other than his ears.

Rik got the nose ring, while DJ got the librette piercing under his lip. Chris refused to do more than toy with his hair color.

Kevin soaped himself in the shower. His ab muscles were tight and hard. It aroused him to caress this new person he had become. He washed someone else. His cock snapped to attention.

“This is a job for Daddy Bear.” Stewart opened the shower door.

“Thinking of you.” Kevin blushed.

“At your age, you only have to think of it for it to happen.”

Stewart joined him.

“I’m about done.”

“Do my back before you go.”

Kevin rubbed the shower brush in small circles along Stewart’s hairy shoulders and down his spine.

“The meeting today making you tense?”

“If I get too tense, I’ll picture you.”

Stewart was to meet with the head of his department to review research grants.

“If they cut me off, 4Give can do a benefit for us.”

Kevin got dried. He took out clean clothes, his own clothes from his drawer in Stewart’s dresser. He smiled to be a part of a man’s life. A man who wanted him as a part of his life. Stewart had a similar drawer of clothes at Kevin’s place.

“What’s on for you today?”

“Teddi’s back from Florida. Conference this afternoon. Till then housework at my place.”

“Housework?”

“Stuff I never have time for, thanks to you.”

Kevin hadn’t missed Teddi much. Since Stewart, he had withdrawn from the encounters with Teddi and Mario. At first fearful, but Teddi simply moved her attentions to DJ. He did miss the smell and taste of Mario.

He was comfortable with Stewart, accepted and safe. The sex was better than his fantasies. After sex with Teddi and Mario, he was depleted, after sex with Stewart, he was fulfilled.

As he walked towards his house, he saw Teddi’s car parked out front. Mario got out to greet him.

“Morning, Mario. What brings you here?”

“I’ve been trying to reach you.”

“I’ve been at Stewart’s.” That he was involved was no secret. “What’s so urgent?”

“Teddi’s signed the band for the big Port Frolic show July Fourth.”

“Wow! Fantastic.”

“Yeah. I … you going to ask me in?”

Mario’s cologne filled Kevin’s living room.

“I wanted to talk to you alone.”

“What is it? The band is doing good, isn’t it?”

“I … you know, those times with you and Teddi? I uh…”

“What? You got the crabs?”

“I … no … Kevin, I want to be with you.”

“Holy fuck!”

“When I see you with Stewart, I can’t stand the thought of of his hands on you.”

“But you told me … ”

“What I told you at the time was true. I sensed how you felt for me and didn’t want you to misunderstand. But … shit … after a while I wished it was just me and you.” He leaned into Kevin and kissed him. “I could never let go with Teddi there.”

He kissed Kevin again. The phone rang, and Mario jumped back.

Kevin answered.

“Hello, Kev me boy. It’s that time of the month.”

 

Steven

 

“You positive you won’t come to the awards? I’ll dedicate my Galdie to you, if I win it.”

“Sorry Steven.” Luke rubbed his eyebrows.

“Headache? You should see Dr. Blake.”

“Every little ache and pain doesn’t need a doctor.”

“But this one hasn’t been going away.”

“It will. Don’t worry about me, Steven. Please. Go to the awards. Enjoy yourself. It’ll do you good to see your legit theatre pals.”

“You implying The Kiark isn’t legit?”

They laughed.

“It has paid for the house, wiped out all our credit card bills, and there’s more where that came from.”

“You mean I’m not pulling my load? I got the Lubba’s buy-out financed without you. ”

Luke’s sudden shift of mood caught Steven off guard.

“Luke, I’m the one who’s finally pulling his weight around here. After all, my tips didn’t add much to the nest egg.”

“I never complained.”

He kissed Luke. “You enjoyed that, didn’t you? Luke and his kept man.”

“You think I let people think I kept you? That I got some sort of kick out of that? The gook and his white house boy?”

“That’s not what I mean at all.”

“I know. Sorry.”

“Things going okay at Lubba’s?”

“We get along without you, if that’s what you mean.”

“Of course. After all, you are the back bone of that place.”

“What do you mean ‘that place?’ That place has been pretty good to us.”

“Jesus, what’s with you? I can’t say anything right. I better go before I say anything more.”

On his way to Dynosun, Steven wondered what had made Luke sensitive. Things had gotten worse in the past month. After the Sestos, things were better than ever. Then this abrupt shift in Luke. Or was it him? He was more self-confident, thanks to the success of the Kiark. His nomination for Three-Quarter Time resulted in a Queer Plus cover. He had a career instead of a hobby.

Now that he was less dependent, did Luke feel less needed?

 

Yves

 

Yves had seen four new patients that day at the hospice.  He had missed the way this routine brought him to earth. He needed to be grounded. He had gone into Jake’s room and not sensed the vibration of Jake there.

If he hadn’t gotten  back to the hospice Tom would have taken up all his time. He had been struck by love, and resented the amount of space it took up in his head.

“Penny for your thoughts.”

“Nancy, Nancy, Nancy, such a thing I never expected.”

“Love is it?”

They sat on the couch in Jungle Land. Yves smelled the earth of the plants.

“Who is the lucky guy?”

“Tom Paley.”

“The man from Winnipeg? Is it that serious?”

“I can’t get him out of my mind.”

“Scares you doesn’t it?”

“Does it show?”

“Only to the trained eye. Having taken the tumble myself more than once there’s always this scary point.”

“He’s so far away and …”

“How much of that is a part of the attraction?”

“What do you mean?”

“It’s easier to fall for someone you don’t have to face every day. Distance makes the heart more willing.”

“One of us will have to move, if things are to become more than long distance.”

“My God, Yves, are you queer? I’ve known men who moved in after two hot hours in the tubs.”

“Call it old age. I’m settled here, and he’s settled there.  I can’t ask him to move when I’m not willing to move myself.”

“Have you told Tom?”

“No. Just that I miss him and ….”

“What?”

“I’m such a schoolgirl. I caught myself writing his name on a chart the other day. Doodling hearts around it.”

“Yves!” Nancy laughed. “I never would have expected that of you. Feels good, doesn’t it?”

“Yes. Feels good and hurts at the same time. I meet someone but have to travel thousands of miles to be near them.”

“What a tasty frustration.”

“I suppose. I hate this. I do. I don’t want to lose my mind to some guy. It’s too …. I don’t know. It’s something I’ve wanted, and now that I have it I despise it. I want it and I despise it.”

“Oh Yves.” Nancy laughed again. “I hate to tell you, but this is the tip of the iceberg.”

 

David

 

“Call for you David.”

“Thanks Val.”

David was in the midst of final touches for the fall line. The show was a week away. They hadn’t been able to track down enough of his original print selection for the blouses. The substitute  didn’t look as strong, to David’s eye. The right color button would pull the print together.

“David Walters speaking.”

“Hello, sweetness.”

“Godwin! Since when did you have time to call me!”

David put down his scissors.

“I’m on my way in from the airport. How are things there?”

“Blender on puree. I’d have a cappuccino if I had time.”

“All set for the awards tonight?”

“Shit. I forgot all about them.”

“I will pick you up after work?”

“No. I have to go home to change. How did things go in Bonn?”

“I have much to do before I pick you up. Six o’clock okay?”

“Call … wait … there’s too much to do here. I’ll meet you there.”

“I will send a car to take you there, if I have to.”

Godwin would do that. It was nice to have someone concerned about his comfort, but at the same time the interest was too much. He didn’t want to take advantage of Godwin. If he gave in an inch, Godwin threatened to wash over him.

“Lin won’t let me miss the awards. Too ripe a promo op for the Nest if I win.”

“She is quite right. Call if you need a car.”

“Okay. Okay. I missed you.”

“I missed you too, sunshine.”

After their first date, David hadn’t expected anything to develop, but Godwin was persistent. David had to learn to live with things like three personal assistants; a car to pick him up; frequent trips to the Continent, to Asia. He’d been invited on these, but the fall show was his priority.

Lin and Zetta were surprised he remained. So was he. The life  Godwin offered was hard to resist. While it fascinated David, the more of it he experienced, the less he wanted it. To have so little time to do things. To have to make appointments, check agendas to squeeze in a lunch or a supper. Godwin had wealth, but no life of his own.

“See you tonight.” David hung up.

“‘Ows it coming?”

“I think I have it Zetta.” He handed her a card of deep red buttons with small cut glass insets.

“Verry nice, but non. Per’aps for the show, but too expensive. We want these to be under fifty dollars.”

Hornet Nest was keen to keep prices down. That often meant he used cuts that took less fabric or one less button.

“How about these?” He handed her a card of similar red buttons with flecks of pink and blue.

“Okay. Much prettier, don’t you t’ink. More casual.”

“Excuse me.”

“Yes, Val?”

“Did someone order cappuccinos?” She nodded out to her desk.

David followed her out to the lobby. There were two delivery men from Le Caffe.

“David Walters?”

“Right. But I didn’t order …”

“Compliments of The Okpara Consortium.”

on stage Noir June 2013

on stage Noir June 2013

Tommy proved to a sensation. After the dismal R&J my hopes were slightly diminished – especially when my reaction was underlined by a real reviewer. Happily Stratford got this production nearly perfect.

no caged birds here

i’m free

Our seats were 3rd row from the stage – a bit more front than I had expected when we reserved back in December. So I very up close & personal. One of my theatre companions jumped at the first chord. The music was very loud but not distorted.  My chest vibrated – guess that’s good of the old ticker. Though some quickly left during the overture & others didn’t return after intermission.

Robert Markus, as Tommy, on wires was stunning & the show could have done with a bit more of that. He was in control & comfortable with it & made wire work look effortless. He has a sweet stage presence, a great voice & rocked those tight white jeans & white patent leather doc martins. I didn’t care for him the preview videos but after his first entrance I was a fan. He is worth the price of admission – the spirited performances by Paul Nolan & Steve Ross make it a money’s worth show.

Inventive, eye-grabbing visuals, dynamic staging & great costumes propelled the story. The ensemble work was spot on; Tommy’s ‘gang’ were tight unit & one felt they all really loved what they were performing. Beyond good singing & performances by all. Steve Ross’s Uncle Ernie was creepily ordinary & hence even more powerful. Steve Nolan as Cousin Kevin was more than groovy.

heal me

heal me

Only let down was Acid Queen (more like Placid Queen) – her scene didn’t seem thought out & felt pointless – as if the song was too good to cut. What was she going to do to make the boy into a man – teach him how to motorboat her?

Act 2  was a muddle. It didn’t connect emotionally – Tommy’s change to pop icon isn’t what the play is about & even through there are great songs, the ending didn’t hold together for me. But who cares, right – this isn’t a documentary!

burn witch burn

acid queen’s not fit for burning

I’m Free, I’m A Sensation & Pinball wizard were given over-the-top, electrifying performances. The band was excellent without every showing off – too bad the sound balance favored them over the singers. The dancers were excellent but I wish the choreography itself has been more challenging for them. They needed a brief spot to break into free form. The nods to the original album art (i.e. the flight of doves) were sweet. I wondered how many realized the french horn was there only because Entwistle played it, not because the text called for it.

High recommended. Also recommended: Rocky Mountain’s maple walnut fudge.

my coming attractions

my coming attractions

June 9 – Sunday – attending – Cabaret Noir

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June 13 – Thursday – attending – The Beautiful and The Damned

damnsmall

June 24-28 – attending – Rosemary Aubert’s Fiction Writer’s How To

writing blocks broken at Loyalist

writing blocks broken at Loyalist

August 22-25 – attending – FanExpo 2013

possible cover for  City of Valleys

possible cover for
City of Valleys

links to previous excerpts4243444546474849

excerpt 50

City of Valleys

February

David

“I am happy that you agreed to meet with me at short notice.” Godwin rose from the table.

“The flowers were hard to resist.”

Gar’s was one of the better restaurants. David had never been inside. He had been shown upstairs to one of the private rooms.

“I hoped they would please you.”

“Pleased and intrigued.”

“Ah, at last, the secret of being intriguing to another man.”

He held a chair for David to sit and sat opposite. Soft guitar music almost filled the silence.

“You are looking …”

“I have to admit …”

They spoke at the same time.

“You have something to admit.”

“Yes. I … uh … didn’t know much about you. A co-worker says you’re a very shrewd businessman.”

“You think I have business for you?”

“I’m not sure.”

“I do not. I want you. Your body.”

“Oh, I see.”

David pushed away from the table. His heart pounded.

“My honesty surprises you.”

“Disappoints.”

“I do not understand.”

“I’m not for sale. I feel foolish but … if you want to buy sex I’m the wrong man.”

“You misunderstand.”

Outside he hailed a cab before he could be followed.

As he neared his apartment, he was unsure what had prompted his abrupt walkout. This wasn’t the first time someone had been direct about sex. In fact, he preferred that directness.

As he opened the lobby door, Godwin stepped beside him.

“I am sorry to have offended you, David. You do not find me attractive?”

What was the answer to that question? He looked Godwin up and down. Nondescript. Well-dressed conservative. Clothes that David himself would wear.

“I … Godwin, I have never …”

“Do not tell me this is your first time.”

“With a … black man.”

“My sexual overture is so unwelcome, you chose to insult me in this manner because I am black, black like you.”

“No. I was told you are wealthy. Very wealthy.”

“That bothers you?”

“Yes. I jumped to the conclusion that you buy what you want.”

“Property, yes. People, no. One can buy the presence of someone or their body, but never their affections.”

“I’m such an asshole.”

“No. I was too sudden. Yes? I should have started with coffee and worked up from there. I do find you attractive, David.”

“Thank you.”

“You do not feel the same towards me, do you?”

David was unsure. He hadn’t met someone who tongue-tied him this much, other than Kevin. If Kevin had asked these questions, his answers were clear.

“One doesn’t have to think hard to answer.”

“I’m sorry, Godwin. I’m not one for lust as first sight.”

“Could we start all over again. My car is nearby. We can go anywhere you want.”

“Tencity will be fine.”

Yves

Yves was at the edge of a clearing. Tall white trees to the left. Small yellow birds flitted from branch to branch. Each had a different three or four-note song that they sang all at once. He wanted them to sing in sequence, to hear if they made a melody.

He reached out his hands. Two fluttered down to his fingers. Iridescent in the sun. Red, yellow, orange, amber. Their tiny feet tickled as they pecked at his palms for seeds.

Their beaks were gentle, but as they found no seeds, they pecked harder and pulled bits of his skin. Drops of blood appeared. He shook his hands, but they clung on. A snake slid around his feet and up his leg. It was snug as it slithered along his arms. In two quick bites it swallowed the birds. It’s thin red tongue soothed his hands.

The snake continued into the air, coiled into the clouds, wrapped itself around the birds’ songs before it disappeared into the sky. On tiptoes, Yves begged for it to stay.

He woke. He had thrown off the blankets and his arms stretched out over the bed.

“Good morning to you too.”

“Dreaming. Such a dream.” Yves drew the covers over himself and Tom.

“Do you have to go to Calgary today?”

“Yes, they expect me.” Yves held Tom close.

“You enjoyed yourself last night?”

“Couldn’t you tell? And the night before.”

“I didn’t know how you’d react to –.”

“Ropes?”

“No. Three-ways. I didn’t mean to spring it on you but …”

“You had to get everything into the open.”

Yves wasn’t sure about ropes or three-ways. With someone else he might have said no, but with Tom it was natural. Scott was a big man with a decent cock and a fun, willing nature. He and Tom knew what they were up to, so Yves wasn’t awkward at anytime.

Tom would drive him to the airport that afternoon.

“I wish I could stay.”

“Then stay.”

“I can come back after Vancouver.”

“To stay?”

“We had a great time because I’m only here for a few days. Easier to commit to a few nights of fun than a lifetime of laundry. What do you want?”

“To see where this’ll lead. Could be that lifetime or it could be another week of this. I wouldn’t complain if it was either. But I don’t want to lose one in favor of the other.”

“Neither do I.”

Tom snuggled on top of Yves.

“It was fun last night though, wasn’t it?”

“I said yes.”

“Scott likes you. I could tell.”

“You like him. Why isn’t he the one?’

“Married. Wife. Kids. The whole she-bang thing. When I met him, on the Internet, he was bi-curious. Now he’s not curious.”

“Just bi.”

“You sound unconvinced.”

“Tom, from the way he wolfed down my dick, he was a convincing queer, period.”

“You ever been with a woman?”

“Once, but none of the parts I like were there. You?”

“Yeah, but they always wanted to be on top.”

They both laughed.

“We better get a move on. We can eat at the airport.”

Yves had spent the previous day at City Hall and had learned more about the River Street Development. The displaced families had been scattered around the city. There were records of where some of them had ended up, and the Robsons had relocated to Forest Lane for several years and then moved again.

He made a note of that final address. It was a lead, but he was no closer to an answer. At the airport, Yves wrote a quick note to that last address.

It was hard not to watch Tom from a distance. To get a real look at him. These few days they had been close, face to flesh most of the time, so he hadn’t been able to see what Tom looked like.

“Haven’t you seen enough of me?”

“No, and I doubt I will.”

His flight was called. To his own surprise, Yves kissed Tom in front of everyone.

Steven

Steven was happy to get away from Dynosun. They’d shot the same scene for the last two days, his rescue of Frila from the clutches of the Earthmen. Lots of alien kung-fu that called for suspension work when his character melded with some planetary force to drop-kick in mid-air. His ribs ached from the hoist.

He was happier that Luke was home and cooking up a storm.

“Honey, I’m homo.”

“Is that you Raoul? Steve won’t be home for …. oh Steven it is you after all.”

“Raoul?”

“Now you know who’s eating Raoul.”

To go through this old routine almost brought tears to Steven’s eyes. When was the last time this had happened? Months.

“Smells good.”

“Must be my new aftershave — chicken with garlic and chives. You go change. This’ll be ready in about ten minutes.” Luke handed him a glass of wine.

Steven went up and found his lounge pajamas on the bed for him. He stripped down to his undies, drained the wine in a gulp and lay on the bed.

The firm mattress was cool. The ache in his ribs was soothed as the wine did its work. This was the life. To have a man lay out your clothes for you after a hard day of wire work. He took a deep breath and flexed his feet.

“You okay?” Luke was on the bed next to him. “You must have been tired.”

“Why?”

“You came up here an hour ago.”

“Jezz, I dropped off. Your chive chicken …”

“It will keep. It likes to simmer. Roll over.”

Steven rolled onto his stomach and Luke massaged along his shoulders. He flinched as Luke touched his ribs.

“Sorry. Ticklish.”

“Harness.”

“Right you were flying today. How was it?”

“Exhausting. Not many lines, but my whole body is tense up there. No way I could relax.”

Luke rubbed gently, then hard.

“Ooh, that feels good.”

“I … I’m sorry I’ve been so busy this week.”

“This helps make up for it.”

“I’m glad. Robert wants to sell his share of Lubba’s, to buy into Rainbow Books.”

“You want to invest more into Lubba’s?”

“My brother wants in. That’s what I’ve been arranging these past few days.”

“We can afford to, thanks to The Kiark. I have a summer movie offer too. American money.”

“Movie offer?”

“Got it today. It would mean Mexico for the summer.”

“Mexico?”

“I wasn’t going to take it. A whole summer without you would be too much for me.”

“But your career.”

“A career without you isn’t one I want.” Steven rolled over. “I have a boner. What should we do with it?”

“Same as we should do for mine.” Luke stood up and his erection strained his sweat pants.

Steven reached up to Luke’s cock. “I missed you.”

Kevin

Kevin expected the bank clerk to glare at him when he passed her his withdrawal slip. She took it and his passbook without a second glance. Too quick, he had $1000 in fifties, as specified by Mitch. Mitch waited outside.

Kevin stuffed the bills in the inside pocket of his parka. Mitch stubbed out a cigarette as Kevin left the bank.

“You got it?”

“Yeah. Here.”

“Not here, dumb ass. Come on, let’s … ”

“This’ll do.” Kevin stepped into the doorway of a “for lease” shop. “Here.”

“Man, oh man.” Mitch thumbed the bills. “Not a word of this to anyone.”

“Yeah, I’ve seen the movie.”

“I’m sure you have. Kevin Does … Curbside.”

“Whatever.”

“No need to act like this Kev, I got your eternal soul at heart. This’ll help make good between you and the Lord. Pay off your sins like a responsible man. You understand?”

“Blackmail isn’t a sin?”

“I pay for that sin by having faggot blood in our family. Don’t think I don’t suffer shame every time I see you on TV. It burns my soul to have an abomination in my family. Burns deep. This’ll help assuage my suffering. Only fair.”

Kevin got away as fast as he could. He glanced to check that Mitch wasn’t behind him.

He wanted to go to sleep and wake up and find this hadn’t happened. Why had he let Mitch do this? Did some part of him believe Mitch – that he had to pay someone off for being gay?  Once 4Give was established, he’d stop. This was the only time he’d let Mitch get away with this.

He wouldn’t let himself be bullied. He didn’t have to. To stand up to Mitch, he needed someone in his life. Was Stewart that someone? The past few nights with Stewart had excited and scared him at the same time. Stewart’s tenderness was what he had longed for, but didn’t believe existed.

There were moments that matched those movie moments where the man and woman look to each other and know what the other thinks. The right roses at the right moment. The right song on the soundtrack. A love he assumed only straights were allowed, yet here he was, a man who felt those emotions with another man.

Mitch was wrong; his TV saviour was wrong; this was no abomination. It was people in love. Pure, simple, glorious love. If he could keep that pure love in mind, he’d have no trouble when he told Mitch where to get off.

He looked back. Next time I’ll tell him.

(End of ‘February’ – coming next ‘April’)

blue bottle fly traps

blue bottle fly traps

the beaten path?

the beaten path?

Here’s the other Doors inspired piece I read at the Plasticine open stage -

Waiting For The Sun

what do I remember

I woke up this morning

morning is a time of day

no one knows what time is

the hours get minced into fragments

ground into flickers of recollection

that blink off before the tv sparks up

to chase away true recall

it’s not the forgetting that I mind

it’s not knowing

if the fragments I have

are mine or something I saw on tv

did I drill those holes in the garage

or was that the beaver

was that me the dog saved

or was it timmy

or was it tommy

tommy can you hear me

was it old cape cod

or lucy in the sky

the shift of gauze

the threads of memory

splay across the window

as the breeze plays

through the curtains – lace

did my mother make those for me

did my sister or did I

am I waiting for the sun

or slipping into unconsciousness

…….

stairway to heaven?

stairway to heaven?

This was sparked by waking one morning & not being sure what day it was. Not having a ‘real’ job to get to sometimes days of the week lack that sort of definition. Title seems fitting today, as we all wait for the sun to warm us up here in Toronto – the spring tease of a hot summer.

my coming attractions

my coming attractions

June 5 – Wednesday – attending – Tommy

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June 9 – Sunday – attending – Cabaret Noir

damnsmall

June 13 – Thursday – attending – The Beautiful and The Damned

June 24-28 – attending – Rosemary Aubert’s Fiction Writer’s How To

Loyalist hallway to hades?

Loyalist hallway to hades?

August 22-25 – attending – FanExpo 2013

possible cover for  City of Valleys

possible cover for
City of Valleys

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excerpt 49

City of Valleys

February

David

Big E’s mid-winter mid-week attraction was Karaoke. David sat at the bar.

“Our next contestant is Godwin Okpara.” Miss Ing wore what appeared to David to be a Liza cast-off, a black see-through shift with gold beading on the hem.

“Hello.”

“Okpara? That’s an odd name.”

“I am Bhatutian.”

“Bhatuta? Central Africa? Right?”

“Yes. Very right. Haha.”

David went to the washroom. The smell of disinfectant reached the hallway that led to it. As he relieved himself, a Bee Gee’s number began.

Miss Ing waited for him by the bar.

“Don’t see you in here on a week night.”

“Needed a break.”

“Valentine’s is around the corner. Got a stunner for me?”

“Of course. He sounds good.”

“Who? Oh the Tootsie? Yeah, well to hit those notes … You want to do a number for us?”

“No. This is as close to that outfit as I want to get.”

“Ouch. Sharper than a serpent’s tongue.”

The song ended and the crowd applauded.

“I can sing another?” Godwin stood there unsure.

“No, no, my pet. You have to give the others a chance. George, you ready to invoke the spirit of Joe Cocker?”

David finished his drink. The smoke and the warmth of the bar made him sleepy and cranky at the same time.

“Hello.” Godwin grinned up at him. He wasn’t as short as he appeared on stage. His wispy moustache wasn’t any fuller close up.

“Hi.”

It had been some time since David had been approached by a stranger at a bar. Was this a conversation or a pick-up?

“Permit me to buy you a drink?”

“No thanks. Some of us work in the morning.”

“Pity. A handsome man like you shouldn’t have to work.”

“Pays the rent.”

“You live around here?”

“Why?”

The man stood too close.

“I want to be with you. Is that out of the question?”

“Yes.”

“You have a lover?”

“Uh — yes.”

“Miss Thingie tells me otherwise. If you are not attracted, why not admit it? Nothing is gained by playing around.”

“I don’t know you.”

“Fair enough. Would you like to get to know me?” Godwin squeezed David’s forearm.

Godwin was blacker than David. Stocky and firm. None of which added to his attractiveness to David. If he were white, would he be sexy?

“You mean a date rather than a pick-up?”

“You got it, baby. Haha. I would like to blow you better. Haha. I mean know you better.”

“Yes, I understand Godwin.”

“You see, you know my name and yours is –”

“Robert didn’t inform you?”

“No. I needed the important information. Single or not?”

“David Walters.”

“About tonight?”

“Not tonight.” Not ever, you forward little man.

As he walked home footsteps crunched behind him. He slowed down to let them pass him. It was Godwin.

“It seems we are going the same way.”

“It is a small world.”

They walked in silence.

“I bid you good night. Miss Ing warned you might be difficult. I like a challenge. Good night, David.” He kissed David on the cheek.

In bed, David stroked his cock. Should he put his reluctance aside to prove Mark wrong? He imagined Godwin’s earnest tongue at his balls, but it was the picture of Kevin as he fell asleep on the couch, his towel open for his sweet cock to bask in the moonlight, that did the trick.

Kevin

Kevin woke with a start. There was someone in the bed. Someone warm and furry. Stewart. A man who wanted to spend the night with him. A man with whom he wanted to spend the night. He slipped out of bed and across the cool floor to the bathroom.

The first piss of the day was always so yellow. Why was that? Ketones? What were ketones? He got into the shower. What was in the fridge to eat? He had cereal. Was Captain Crunch all right? Bread, some cheese. Not even an egg.

He soaped his ass, tender from its first fuck. Stewart’s cock had forced its way up his ass. He had liked it. Wanted more and more of it. Wanted it now.

He rinsed his mouth and stood in his bedroom doorway. Stewart’s breath was slow, steady. He slept like he had been in that bed for years. He was wrapped in the blankets, and one foot stuck out. Kevin studied the firm flow of the body down to the bared foot. He knelt and licked the sole of the foot.

Sweaty clean. He took the heel into his mouth. It was hard, rough. He moved to the side of the foot, to the toes. He didn’t want to tickle but to stimulate. He chewed on the big toe till Stewart stirred.

“Hmm, toe freak. Yeah, work that toe.”

The toe wiggled in his mouth. His cock got hard. Stewart drew his foot up towards him with Kevin attached.

Kevin let the toe out of his mouth to bite Stewart’s ankle, his calf, the inside of his thigh and his balls.

“What a way to wake up. That’s nice. Be hungry, take it, yeah. You want more of it, don’t you. That’s okay. Take it all. Yeah just suck. Chew that foreskin. Harder. Ouch. Yeah. Ohh God, take it all. Down to the root. Yeah enjoy it. It’s all yours. It’s what you want. You can’t get enough.”

Stewart kissed Kevin. At he sucked Kevin’s tongue into his mouth, he came.

“Ohh, after last night there shouldn’t be any jizz left in there.” He grabbed Kevin’s hard cock. “But there’s more here. Always more here.”

He sat against the wall and held Kevin. Took Kevin’s cock into his mouth. Pressed Kevin’s butt and plunged the cock in and out of his mouth. Kevin put one hand on Stewart’s head and steadied himself with the other. The bed began to shake, squeak, as he fucked Stewart’s mouth.

Kevin couldn’t control his breath.

“Ohhh, ohhh!” Turned into a shout as he came. As he came, Stewart sucked harder and didn’t let go.

“Now who wants more.”

Kevin relaxed. His thighs ached from the the tension of shooting. He lay on his stomach and played with the hair on Stewart’s belly.

“Like that man hair, don’t you?”

“Yeah.”

Stewart reached down to his own cock. It was soft, spent, dark. Kevin noticed how thick the foreskin was, how smooth the head appeared.

“Like to look at cock, don’t you?”

“Yeah. Looks like cock to me.”

“You can always tell how endowed a man is by the size of his dick.”

Kevin was drowsy. He wanted to pull the blanket over them and sleep till they were ready for more. What a way to spend the day. Stewart got out of the bed. Kevin heard him piss. My man pissing.

He was about to doze off when there was a warm, wet sensation on his ass. Warm, wet, furry, lips, a mouth.

“Mmmm, this is what I want for breakfast.”

David

It was near lunch when the flowers arrived.

“You have an admirer,” Val clucked as the delivery man brought the flowers into David’s workroom.

It was an elaborate arrangement of red passion flowers surrounded by small, yellow, bell-like blossoms, ferns, red roses, white roses with more red along the edges. All in a green-tinged crystal bowl.

David got the card while Val removed the plastic wrap. Zetta and Lin crowded into the room.

“My, my, dis is genuine Halbert Crystal. Not the zort of t’ing your average florist would ‘ave in stock.”

“Thank you, Zetta.” David opened the card.

“What does it say? Who is it from?”

“Let me read it first. …. Godwin Okpara.’

“Mon dieu!”

“David! Godwin Okpara?” Val fanned herself with her hand.

“The Okpara Consortium? ‘Ow did you meet him?”

David got them out of his office before he give away what little he had to give away. Alone, he read the note.

“David, I was charmed to meet you. If it is not too presumptuous, I should like to dine with you tonight. Call me at 416-454-5544.”

David slipped out to a public phone. He didn’t want office ears to listen. Godwin answered at the first ring.

“Hello, David. You like the flowers?”

“Yes. About tonight …”

“I will send a car for you at seven p.m. I would meet you myself, but I have an overseas call.”

“Yes. That will be fine.”

David wandered over to the food court at Eaton’s. Over a hundred food temptations from around the world, but none appealed to him. He recalled his talk with Godwin. Nothing stood out about the man. Short and chunky, with a big happy smile. Not the sort he noticed.

But he had to prove to himself that he wasn’t, as Mark had suggested, a racist. Godwin wasn’t another island boy or someone from the projects. Maybe he didn’t count.

David studied the people around him. The food court was a trip around the world. Asians, blacks, Latinos, and all the variations of white.

All the years he had designed for Robert Ing, he had never had a sexual though about him. Was it his size? Race? Not butch enough? Damn that Mark, to put these ideas in his head.

He never liked men who were attracted to his blackness, and he knew when that was the case. The way their eyes lingered on his mouth, or their hands moved over him as if to feel for what made black flesh different, as if color had a texture.

He stopped short in front of a TknoSonk store. The front window was a life-size poster of 4Give. Kevin’s eyes held his.

Steven

Luke wasn’t home when Steven left for the studio. He had called the cellphone only to find that Luke had left it in his rush. He didn’t want to alarm Luke’s parents with a call there. He called Lubba’s.

“Hi Tony, is Luke around?”

“No, today’s his day off.”

“Oh I forgot …”

“I’ll say. He said the two of you were getting out of town for the day, and we weren’t to bother trying to get him at home.”

“Yes … well … I was waiting for him so we could leave. He’s … he’s coming in the house now. Sorry to bother you. Bye.”

A day out of town?

He checked for messages and there was one.

“Hi, Honey. Sorry to leave in a rush last night, but as you heard, trouble came up with … Mother. Nothing too serious. I’ll be in touch as soon as I can. Not to worry. I love you. Don’t call, the less the phone rings the better. See you tonight.”

He looked over his scenes, but had no focus. “Nothing too serious.” Then why dash out in the middle of the night? Why tell him not to call? But that did make some sense. He had enough to deal with with his scenes that day.

In the car, he practiced his Kiark speech to the Convene of Kelders. This was his plea to them that the humans were not to be trusted, that they had better be prepared for the worst or suffer the consequence, events for which the Kiark had no mental images.

“Sag kamnd Kiark …” If there was an award for performance in a fake language, this show would scoop it.

The morning shoot was trouble free. He didn’t lose any pages, pieces of costume or weapons. That made it a good morning.

“You’re a bit off.” Tanya clambered into his dressing room. She inched off her Kiark headpiece and shook out her hair. “Vic will kill me when he has to reset all this, but that’s what he’s fucking paid for.”

“You could always go my route.”

“What! It would be cheaper to digitally remove my hair than have me cut it.”

“How’s the romance?”

“Craig is sweet. They all are at that age. What gives? You can’t hide from our mind link.”

“Luke’s been … distant.”

“Grass widow stuff. Happens all the time. You away all day, too pooped to pop when you are home. God, I know that story. That’s why actors fall for each other. We know what to expect.”

“Probably. I hope it is.”

“Maybe when you guys got bashed.”

“How so?” The connection between their sex problems and the attack was clear, but he hadn’t given consideration to any other damage the blow to Luke’s head may have caused.

“Stunt men get a bit bent after a few bonks to the noggin. How long was he unconscious?”

“A couple of hours. That was months ago. We would have noticed by now. Wouldn’t we?”

“Steven, I’m an actress who has never played a doctor.” Tanya patted her face with a tissue. “Talk to your doctor about it.”

“I’m not sure if there’s anything … ” Seeing Dr. Blake behind Luke’s back didn’t appeal to him.

ants out of my pants

ants out of my pants

the smoking glove

the smoking glove

Entering month six of the Bradbury method – which is partly to write a short story a week. Actually I didn’t do any fiction writing during April – poetry month. So far I’ve got five completed – plus a couple of extensive false starts – pieces that called for more backstory and telling than I wanted to put into them at the time. I’ll get back to them eventually. I didn’t realize that some sub-genres would call for more story weaving than I anticipated – but I’ll be more than happy to get back to them.

portal to ?

portal to ?

I say ‘sub-genres’ because I aimed to try several types that I have never worked on before – vampire, werewolf, and aliens. I have found that I can’t do ‘literary’ short story. Those slice-of-life, heart-tugging, looks at unwell people trying to help equally as unwell people cope with their disintegrating lives. By disintegrating I mean emotional instability not zombie decay. So no warm and fuzzy from me.

brolly folly

brolly folly

I’ve had success with the macabre – all those years of the Twilight Zone, plus Lovecraft – have seeped deeply into my plotting bones. I like ‘what if’ moments of the unexpected. I back away from explaining why too much. Too much explanation sucks the mystery out of things. Why ask for suspension of belief to only weight it down with any rationalization?

my coming attractions

my coming attractions

June 5 – Wednesday – attending – Tommy

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June 9 – Sunday – attending – Cabaret Noir

damnsmall

June 13 – Thursday – attending – The Beautiful and The Damned

writing blocks broken at Loyalist

writing blocks broken at Loyalist

June 24-28 – attending – Rosemary Aubert’s Fiction Writer’s How To

August 22-25 – attending – FanExpo 2013

possible cover for  City of Valleys

possible cover for
City of Valleys

links to previous excerpts424344454647

excerpt 48

City of Valleys

  

February

Yves

Yves’ sense of height disappeared in Tom’s arms. Their mouths met, and after a few tentative kisses, tongues sought each other.

He’d been with other men over the past months, but none brought up this rush of physical hunger. Tom’s hands were on his bare flesh. Fingers pinched his nipples hard.

He yanked down Tom’s sweatpants, pulled the sweatshirt over his head. No cologne spoiled the natural odor of his body.

He stood for Tom to undo his belt. He shuddered as Tom’s lips brushed his cock. His erection pained him. Tom’s tongue darted around the head.

“Slow down.” Yves stepped out of his pants.

“I’ve been waiting too long.” Tom stood on the sofa. Taller for once, he cradled Yves head as they kissed. He pushed Yves’ head to his nipples.

“Bite me. Harder. Harder.” Tom whispered. “That’s right. Don’t be afraid. Bite me.”

Yves moved to the other nipple. He pressed his belly against Tom’s hard dick. The length of two-by-four flesh rammed into his diaphragm. He wanted it in his mouth but Tom kissed him.

“You are a powerful kisser.”

“Merci.” He scooped Tom up in his arms and carried him to the bedroom.

“No, not yet. Let’s get clean. Me first.”

Tom’s shower stall was large enough for the two of them to rub together under the hot water. Tom left Yves to rinse. In that brief time, the lights were dimmed and there was a soft electronic burble on the stereo. Yves went to the bedroom.

Tom lay on the bed in a warm yellow light. He ran one hand along his chest to his cock. “You want this don’t you?”

Yves ran his own hand along his chest to his cock. “You want this don’t you?”

Tom grinned. He stretched his arms over his head. “Tie me up.”

“What?”

“You heard me. Tie me up.”

“How …”

“The bed posts, sir.”

Yves felt along the bed posts and found heavy chain bolted into each corner with padded leather cuffs attached. The lengths were set for Tom. He cinched the cuffs as tight as he dared.

“Tighter,” Tom begged.

Tom lay spread-eagle on the bed. His thick cock strained to the ceiling.

“Do what you want.”

“What if I want to watch TV?”

“That’s not what you had in mind ten minutes ago.”

Yves got on the bed. Tom’s position made it awkward for him to hug him. He kissed Tom and was rewarded with a tongue suck that locked them together for several minutes. As he lay on top of Tom his cock grazed the underside of Tom’s scrotum. Tom lifted his hips to allow Yves cock to brush his ass.

Yves straddled Tom.

Tom smiled. “Give me your butt, Sir”

Yves swung around and lowered his ass to Tom’s face. Tom’s tongue was hot and eager. The position let him handle Tom’s cock.

The head was smooth, the foreskin thick and pliable. He squeezed the foreskin to cover and then expose the head. He couldn’t get his hand around the base, and the shaft had the same thickness up to the head.

He licked the head. It was slick with salty precome. He stretched his mouth to get it around the cock. He allowed his jaw to relax for more to fit. He slid one hand under Tom’s ass to push the cock into his mouth. He wrapped the other hand around Tom’s balls and tugged.

He could only get the first few inches of cock in his mouth. He let it slip out and moved to Tom’s heavy balls. He chewed the skin of the bag like gum, bit the underside hard.

The chains clinked as Tom yanked the restraints.

“Ohh yes. Bite!”

“Shut up.” Yves commanded.

“Yes, sir. Sorry.”

Yves continued to bite the inside of Tom’s leg to his feet, his toes. A bite to the arch of his foot sent a jolt through Tom. Yves enjoyed his power.

He made his way up the other leg. He forced up a fistful of the foreskin to chew. Tom shuddered and writhed.

“Keep still,” Yves barked.

Tom was motionless.

Yves let go and moved to straddle Tom’s face. He dangled his cock over Tom’s mouth. He kept it within tongue distance, let it dip in Tom’s mouth for a moment or two.

The fevered rush of orgasm started in his balls. He plunged his cock into Tom’s mouth and leaned forward to suck Tom’s cock. He got more of it in his mouth than before, and the full mouth feel was as close to ecstasy as he could remember.

He withdrew, and his come spread over Tom’s chest. Tom’s tongue worked his balls. Yves clutched Tom’s foreskin and slid it up and down over the the shaft. Tom’s back arched and three small drops of sperm appeared.

Steven

Steven pressed the buzzer again. After a long day, the last thing he needed was a strange car in their driveway. A note said the culprit was next door.

A thump of feet up the stairs and the door opened a crack.

“Could you move the car?”

“Sorry.”

Thumps down the stairs and another set up. A bearded guy put his coat on as he came out. “Kevin wasn’t sure — I mean there isn’t much parking left on the street.”

“It’s fine. Let me get my car in the garage and you can put yours back.”

“Thanks.” The guy went to his car.

“If you park on the far side of the drive, you won’t have to move it in the morning.”

“Right. Thanks again.”

“Hello,” Steven called out once he was in the house. “Our boy next door is starting a brothel. Hello?”

The plant sat on the kitchen table.

“I’m on the phone.” From Luke’s tone it was important. “Yes. … I see. Okay. … Don’t worry. We can deal with this. That’s what I’m here for. Right … Me too. Bye.”

“I have to go out.”

“Luke, we just got in.”

“Can’t be helped. I won’t be too long.”

As Luke drove away, Steven realized he hadn’t asked what or where the emergency was. He opened a bottle of wine. He nudged the thermostat up. The comfortable rumble of the furnace filled the quiet of the house.

Tired from the shoot, Steven wanted sleep, but didn’t want to surrender to it. He liked the drowsy, tired sensation of half sleep as it met the fuzzy tingle of the wine. He poured another glass and watched TV.

When would Luke be home? Where had he gone? He should have gone, but Luke hadn’t asked. He’d hear all about it in the morning.

Kevin

“Nice place. Cozy.”

“Thanks. Can I get you something? I have a couple of beers in the fridge. Tea?”

“Beer’ll be fine. Where’s the can? Gotta make room.”

“End of the hall.”

Kevin stood in his little kitchen. He didn’t have glasses large enough for a whole beer and there was no place to put glasses down in the living room. Clothes to be washed were sorted in separate piles of whites or colours on the couch. God, what a slob he must look like. His bedroom wasn’t in much better shape.

“Thanks.” Stewart took a bottle from Kevin. “Don’t get in much do we?”

“I never have enough time off –”

Stewart’s tongue filled Kevin’s mouth. His beard smelt of French fries. It tickled. As they pressed together, Stewart’s hard cock rubbed against his. Stewart squeezed Kevin’s ass cheeks together.

“Good. Feels real good.”

“Yeah.”

Stewart got out of his jeans. His cock stood ready in a mass of black pubic hair. Hair. More than Kevin had seen on a man.

“Don’t need long johns.” Kevin dropped to his knees to bury his face in the dark mass. It smelled of soap, sweat, piss. Stewart’s uncut cock was hot against his face. Pre-come oozed. The skin was dark. He pushed his hand along Stewart’s belly and the hair there was thicker, fuller.

“You like hair?”

“What do you think?”

“Good. Because there is more where that came from.” He took off his sweater.

“Wow!”

“They used to call me the missing link.”

“I could have guessed.”

“Are you going to suck or do my hair?”

Kevin opened his mouth. The doorbell rang.

“Oh shit!”

The doorbell rang again. He sprinted up the steps. It was Steven from next door to get them to move the car.

While Stewart did that, Kevin made his bed, lit a couple of candles, checked that lube and condoms were close at hand. His jeans were around his knees when Stewart returned.

“I wanted to do that.”

They stood naked before one another.

“I’m not as hairy as you.”

“Not even Gentle Ben is. Opposites attract.”

“You find me attractive?” Kevin asked.

“What do you think?”

“I think I want you to fuck me.”

“That can be arranged.”

Stewart ran his hand along Kevin’s stomach. “But first I’m going to make you beg for it.”

He pushed Kevin to the bed and lay on top of him. They kissed. Kevin wrapped his legs around Stewart’s calves to hold him tight. Their cocks ground together, and Kevin was afraid he would come.

This was what it meant to be with a man. The two of them driven by a mutual hunger and desire. Stewart bit his ear, sucked at it. He did the same with Kevin’s nipples and stomach, before he attacked the cock. While he sucked on Kevin’s cock his fingers toyed with Kevin’s ass.

“You are tight.”

“Never done it.”

Kevin was glad the room was too dark for Stewart to see him blush.

“We’ll take this slow.”

Stewart continued to suck Kevin’s cock and balls. He shifted on the bed to let Kevin suck him at the same time.

Each thrust of his fingers made Kevin suck harder, more frantically. Kevin wanted this man’s come like no man he had been with before. The more Stewart teased his ass, the more he wanted that come.

“Take it easy, babe.” Stewart moved his cock away. “I’m only good for one load a night.”

His fingers twitched in Kevin’s ass and Kevin couldn’t control himself any longer. His come gushed gobs on his stomach and on Stewart.

“Ooh babe, you been holding that for much too long.”

“Yeah? We ready?”

Stewart put on a condom, lubed it, put on a second one, lubed it while Kevin played with his balls.

“On your stomach.”

Kevin rolled over. Cool drops of lube oozed along the crack of his ass. Stewart lay on top of him and ground his cock between his ass cheeks.

The sensation of hairy belly on his back pushed Kevin closer to bliss. He moved his ass, and Stewart’s cock touched his hole.

“Oh yeah, Kev, that butt is begging for it. Are you ready?”

The head of Stewart’s cock entered him.

“Ow! Ow!” His sphincter muscles burned.

“Keep breathing. Take a breath.”

Stewart propped on his elbows and with slow small movements went in deeper and deeper.

Kevin turned his head and they kissed.

Stewart pumped. Sometimes a few quick thrusts, sometimes long deep thrusts. Kevin didn’t want him to stop. He wanted to fall asleep with this man in him.

“Kiss me.” Stewart hips jerked in and out and stilled.

Stewart’s orgasm pulsed deep in him. A pulse that was a heartbeat.

Umbellas of Danforth

Umbellas of Danforth

I want to put my nose to the grindstone but I have to decide which grindstone to start with, & which nose to put on it. The How To  workshop is less than a month away & I have yet to decide what to bring for workshopping – another section of Lazarus Kiss (my NaNo 2011 novel)? something from The Priest’s Niece – my NaNo 2012 novel. Or a short story? Which nose?

bye bye jodi

bye bye jodi

I’ve been continuing my research for Niece. The more I find out the more I wonder how historically accurate I want this book to be. Can I get away with a sort of mash up of what suits my story or should I stick to strict ‘this is how it was’ – not that I want have my 1925 coal miners using cell phones. The story is culturally true to the time era I’m working in but I don’t want readers griping that my Dragermen equipment wasn’t that developed by 1925 – unless I say it was prototype? hmm.

under water

under water

Last year at the workshop I gave a presentation on e.publishing that was based on my minimal experience, podcasts & the Bloody Words panel. This year I’m going to do a presentation on something I’m more equipped to talk about: how to give a reading.  The participants are all fiction writers – several published so I’m not going to pull my punches.

broken record

broken record

Even more than poets novelist feel compelled to set-up a section endlessly. My theory is if it takes ten minutes of set up you’ve picked the wrong passage. Avoid scenes with more than three characters – it just confuses the listeners. Maybe we don’t need very word of the detailed description of period shoes, stockings and accessories. Yeah, this going to be fun (for me).

my coming attractions

my coming attractions

June 5 – Wednesday – attending – Tommy

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June 9 – Sunday – attending – Cabaret Noir

June 13 – Thursday – attending – The Beautiful and The Damned

view from my window Loyalist 2012

view from my window
Loyalist 2012

June 24-28 – attending – Rosemary Aubert’s Fiction Writer’s How To

August 22-25 – attending – FanExpo 2013

possible cover for  City of Valleys

possible cover for
City of Valleys

links to previous excerpts42434445 - 46

excerpt 47

City of Valleys

 

February

Steven 

Steven sat at Lubba’s bar. He had dropped by to pick up Luke.  He resisted the temptation to clear a table.

“You owe me five bucks.” Luke sat next to him. “Henry get a bottle of that winter wine. Put it in a bucket and I’ll bring it over to table 17.”

“Celebrating are we?” Steven’s curiosity was piqued. He followed Luke to table 17.

“Steven, how are you? How’s the shoot? Nice to see you.” Tim jumped up and shook his hand.

“Join us?” Lisa took her purse off the chair beside her.

“Compliments of the house.” Luke popped the bottle open.

“To the mother-to-be.” Tim clinked his glass against Lisa’s.

“May you be blessed with grateful children.” Luke smiled.

“Thank you.”

“What have you been up to?” Steven asked.

“He’s done a raft of commercial shoots.” Lisa squeezed Tim’s hand.

“For the States. Cheaper to shoot up here.” Tim counted them off. “First earth-friendly garbage bags, next a dynamite burst of orange juice magic to start your day, then a phone call that tugs at your heart while it slips its fingers into your wallet, and … ”

“Who’s your agent?”

“Best part is that they won’t get aired up here. It means I won’t get overexposed in this town, and I could get spotted by Spielberg or someone in the States.” He kissed Lisa. “Ah yes, we are on our way now. How’s the Star Trek shoot?”

“It is not Star Trek.” Steven hesitated. The Kiark shoot was semi-secret. “It’s called ‘The Kiark,’ and all I can reveal is that it is very wet. Lots of rain.”

“And no hair.” Luke ran his hand over Steven’s head.

“Please don’t muss my five o-clock bristle. It’s no eyelashes that’s the killer. For close-ups they had to de-lash me.” Steven closed his eyes.

“Yuk. How much longer?”

“Another week or two.”

“Two!” Luke glared. “Last night you said …”

“I know what I said last night, but re-shoots happen.”

“I’ll be happy when this run of commercials is over. As much as I like Tim to work, I also like to see him, period. Some nights he comes home, sleeps, and is gone in the morning.”

“He didn’t spend all his time asleep.” Luke winked.

“How many weeks?”

“Six.” She grinned.

“Congratulations again.”

At the car, he handed the keys to Luke. “You drive, honey.”

“Hard day?” Luke warmed up the car.

“Wrap a blanket around me and I’ll sleep right here.”

“They’re pretty happy.’ Luke merged into traffic.

“Yeah. One thing we queer boys don’t get. The joys of child-bearing.”

“You regret that?”

“No. There’s enough in the Thomas family gene pool without me adding to it. Yours too. Why? Do you regret it?”

“It’s like the last rite of passage into adulthood. To become a parent.”

“This leading up to getting a dog, or what?”

“God no. Between Lubba’s and The Kiark we can barely handle a house plant.”

“Pull over here.” Steven pointed to a grocery store.

Steven jumped out and returned in ten minutes with a large green and white-leafed plant.

“It’s a dieffenbachia.” Steven read from the tag. “Dief say hello to Papa.”

“Steven, sometimes I think you are out of your mind, and other times I know you are.”

“Thanks. What’s my reward?”

“Not in front of the children, dear.”

Yves

Tom lived on a street of identical houses.

“They were built right after the war. Cheap homes built for our soldier boys to start families.

“A single story brick house. Living room, kitchen, bedroom, den, part-finished basement.” Tom drove into an alley.

“Fully detached.” Yves added to the list. “Toronto has a lot of duplexes and row houses. Fully detached is a plus.”

“Yours?”

“Semi-detached.”

In the house, Yves sat on the couch. It was odd to be so familiar with the photos of the room yet anxious in the real thing. The painting over the couch was a seascape. Sunset infused the crests of waves. The other walls were bare. In the window corner was the TV and in the other was the entertainment center: radio, CD player, turntable, dual tape-deck and a reel-to-reel.

“Those of us who don’t go in for pets go in for electronics.” Tom had changed into grey sweatpants and a sweatshirt. “You’d like to met the rest of my family?”

There was an array of computer equipment in the den.

“Spend a lot of time here?”

“Not as much as I’d like, but more than I’d like to, at the same time.”

“Right.” Yves walked into Tom. “Ouff. Sorry. Didn’t think you were right behind me.” With him close, Yves was aware of Tom’#s size.

“I am, in fact, shorter than claimed. Past experience has led me to lie a little. Sorry if you are disappointed.”

“I’m not disappointed.”

“The rest is as advertised.”

They ate at a table under the kitchen window.

“What else brings you here? You were very mysterious about it in your e-mail.”

Yves gave him a brief history about Jake that ended with the safety deposit box.

“How long were you two lovers?” Tom asked.

“Lovers? Never.”

“Could have fooled me the way you talk about him. Anyway, River Street is an easy one. Americans put up a giant, now almost abandoned mall, and almost brought down the provincial government at the same time.”

“How?”

“The usual graft to get the land permits, taxpayers’ money to foot the cost of relocating hundred of families. No public consultations.? That sort of thing.”

“What happened to those relocated families?”

“No idea.”

They went to the front room. Tom’s body was solid. His sweatpants were snug around his calves and butt. They sat on the couch.

“Time to get down to the brass tack?” Tom put his hand on Yves’ inner thigh. “Or more chit-chat before foreplay?”

David

David shut his apartment door with a sigh. Home was welcome after a day’s work. His phone blinked, but he didn’t want to talk to a soul. He undressed on his way to the bathroom. He poured bubble bath into steamy water.

“H’matta,” he sank into the hot water, “are you trying to drown me in possibility?”

A gentle knock on the door brought him out of his tub reverie. He put on his bathrobe and answered it. It was Mark.

“How are things at the Nest?”

“Humming. I fit in like an old sock.”

“You were never happy in bookstores.”

“I didn’t think you cared.”

“The buzz cut suits you.”

“Too bad Afros are making a comeback.”

“You mean it’s the last of dreads? Praise the Lord.”

“Honey, that’s what Afros become overnight.” David went to his bedroom to get dressed.

“You get the paper today?”

“Too busy. Why?”

“Police Protection Association has announced their officers will not co-operate with any investigation into their actions, and furthermore will vigorously oppose, investigate and resist any attempts to do so.” Mark read from his newspaper. “In other words they don’t want to be held accountable to anyone but themselves.”

“Which means?” David came into the living room.

“Which mean they will use taxpayers’ money to keep taxpayers from asking questions like: ‘Why didn’t you alert the gay community about a gang of murderous queer bashers?’”

“What can you do?”

“Beat my head against the wall. Even if I had the funds to tackle this I don’t know if I have the energy. My inside source informed me that if I don’t drop my case, certain crucial evidence in the Basher Case will turn out to have been tainted.”

“Didn’t they plead guilty?”

“Guilty of what? Set out to kill, or kill by accident. It wouldn’t surprise me to see the case get thrown out on some technicality.”

“What are you going to do?”

“Drop it for now. Keep collecting what I can. I don’t want to jeopardize things. So how was your day?”

“It would take me all night to tell you.” David shook grounds into the coffee maker.

“Anything to take my mind off this.”

“Where do I begin?” David skimmed through the events of the day: designs in the Hornet summer line, Evan’s still-burning flame, and 4Give to be dressed. He showed Mark the sketch of Rik.

“This is very hot. You get his phone number?”

“No.”

“You didn’t experience a twinkle in the winkie?”

“I never mix business with pleasure.”

“Admit it, you like white meat.”

“You fucking bitch.” David was surprised at his fast anger.

“David, I’ve known you for years, and I have never seen you with a black man.”

“That doesn’t mean I prefer white guys.”

“What does it mean? That you haven’t met the right black guy yet? You aren’t looking there.”

“So what if I haven’t. Sex isn’t about color.”

“Who are you kidding, David? If Rik had been white, you would have been all over him.”

“No!”

“I forgot, you have a thing for that kid from the east coast.”

“Kevin McLeod, you mean? He’s okay.” David didn’t want to admit to Mark that he was right.

“Your eyes change when you say his name. You want him so bad it hurts. Admit it. That’s the first step. Repeat after me. ‘I am powerless over Kevin and if I don’t get him my life will become unmanageable.’”

David had never been comfortable with other blacks, men or women. It was time for him to figure out why. Then he could rid himself of this inescapable obsession for Kevin.

Kevin

Kevin shivered inside the Bathurst Subway Station. The vibrant Vegas-like lights of Honest Ed’s flashed at the corner. The signs brought daylight brightness to the street. He’d been there twenty minutes, and if Stewart didn’t show in another five, he would go over to Honest Ed’s for a shopping spree.

Stewart’s head popped out of a car. Kevin got in. The car was cluttered, the floor covered with crushed papers and coffee cups.

“Sorry.” Stewart pulled into the traffic. “Babe gets a bit difficult in this cold weather. Hope you didn’t wait too long.”

“Honest’s Ed’s got harder to resist the longer I stood here.”

“You have some place in mind?”

“This is your neck of the woods.”

“Dinks it is.” Stewart parked on a side street. “We can walk from here.”

“Dinks?”

“Local pub. Might get a singsong tonight.”

Dinks was a two-level bar in a converted warehouse. Dim, with lots of wood, wall hangings, weird sculpture from the ceiling, it reminded Kevin of a huge basement rec room. Stewart led them to a nest of tables and booths on the second level.

“How’s this?”

“Great.” Kevin slid into the booth opposite Stewart.

A waitress appeared and Stewart ordered a pitcher of beer. Before Kevin glanced at the menu, she plopped two pitchers on the table between them.

“Two-for-one happy hour,” she explained. “Ya gonna order?”

“Wings are excellent here.”

“Wings and super-size them. Fries too.” Kevin began to enjoy his freedom from 4Give.

“I was surprised you called.” Stewart poured them each a beer.

“What did you expect when you handed me your card?”

“I don’t know. It was an impulse.”

“Dr. Fish?”

“Lots of money in that. Some people spend more on their goldfish than the goldfish cost in the first place.”

“Cute sister.”

“Daughter.”

“Oh.” Kevin was thrust into confusion and embarrassment. He wanted to escape, but the waitress approached with their food.

“Calm down. I’m a single parent. She lives with her mothers.”

“Mothers?”

“Sperm donation. The short version is, we were high-school sweethearts who were together because we were both gay. She met the woman of her dreams and they wanted a kid. She asked me and I said yes.”

“I thought you were her brother!”

“This light does take years off my age. I was twenty at the time. She’s thirteen. You do the math. And before you ask, I am in medicinal marine biology research. Assistant prof and part-time student. And if you aren’t going to eat those fries I will.”

A fiddler and a guitarist played on the stage at the end of the room.

“I repeat, in hopes of an explanation, I was surprised that you called.”

“So was I. I was feeling too controlled and –.”

“You don’t want to be smothered.”

“No. Yes. I mean, I’m a part of something that doesn’t give me time to be myself. Like this hair style isn’t mine. It’s something Teddi decided would work in the image of the band.”

“Teddi?”

“Theodora Mathias, our producer. She created 4Give.”

“It works though.”

“What works?” Kevin felt a gentle pressure of Stewart’s foot on his under the table.

“You are the hottest one in the band.”

“Thanks.” Kevin got hard. He wiped sauce off his fingers. “Had enough?”

“Of the food? Yes.”

“My place or yours?” Kevin heard his heart pound.

“Yours?”

“Mine it is. East side. South of the Chester Station.”

As they drove, Kevin was aware that this was the first time he had landed a man.

01.Nano-Winner-Certificate1.2

more toys in the snow

toys in the snow

A couple of people have asked why I’m not posting as much poetry these days – mainly so I can concentrate on getting City of Valleys posted before summer. But here’s one of The Doors pieces I read on the open stage at Plasticine this past Sunday.

come lie with me beneath the lilacs

come lie with me beneath the lilacs

Saint Jim

Pere Lachaise

section six section seize

‘seize the moment in section six

you have to seize the moment

saiser l’instant’

Jim starts a new song

‘you have to seize the moment

in section six’

I can hear him shout

through stage fog strobe lights

teeny bopper girls rush the stage

police push them away

as he taunts flaunts teases pleases

scowler prowler

hurt lost shaman

like those silly teeny boppers

I lust after that idol

I wonder what they saw

that day in Miami

if he did flash the iconic cock

I make my way though a light rain

everything is a line in a Saint Jim song

‘making my way

through cemetery rain’

I know he‘s here somewhere

I see mystic marks sprayed

mementos of worship

‘the blue bus stops near here’

the rain stops

and I am there

no monument

only a flat gray space

with a tombstone

his name wrong

James isn’t Jim

beneath my feet his bones

unless they’ve been stolen

relics in sacred altars

for those who think

they can petition this saint

a bunch of faded flowers

some used condom lizard skins

‘lizard skins drying in the sun

show we have seized the moment’

I hear birds

then dozens of people

hiss of cameras

posers smile lean over the tombstone

stoke his name then gone

left alone

I seize my moment

unzip

flash my cock

the only gesture of his I can duplicate

toys in the snow

more toys in the snow

I seriously doubt that Morrison exposed himself – if he had photos would have surfaced by now – there aren’t even fakes. I wrote this a few years ago after reading an article about his grave in Pere Lachaise.

my coming attractions

my coming attractions

June 5 – Wednesday – attending – Tommy

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June 9 – Sunday – attending – Cabaret Noir

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June 13 – Thursday – attending – The Beautiful and The Damned

June 24-28 – attending – Rosemary Aubert’s Fiction Writer’s How To

writing blocks broken at Loyalist

writing blocks broken at Loyalist

August 22-25 – attending – FanExpo 2013

possible cover for  City of Valleys

possible cover for
City of Valleys

links to previous excerpts42434445

excerpt 46

City of Valleys

 

 

February

David

David paced in front of the warehouse that housed Hornet Nest.

Evan hopped out of a taxi.

“Traffic’s a bitch.”

“There’s a decent place along here. Shouldn’t be too busy.”

“Oh good, no msg.” Evan read the sign in the window. “Bright Moon. A good omen.”

“An empty table. An omen to sit and eat.”

The waitress brought menus which, except for numbers before each dish, were in Cantonese. Another put a pot of tea with two little handleless cups on the table.

“What would you suggest?”

“Trust me?” He ordered what Lin ordered for them. He wasn’t sure what it was, but knew which numbers weren’t unwanted surprises.

“Hornet Nest!” Evan poured. “That fire at Rainbow put a fire under you.”

“I was ready.”

Two waitresses brought stacks of steaming bamboo containers.

“You wanted to see me?” David speared a spring roll.

“I’m lining things up for my M Season.” Evan fumbled with his spring roll. “I need a designer.”

“They’ll give you a fork if you ask. M Season?”

“Yes.l Medusa, Menagerie, and Macbeth.”

“Medusa in May or March?”

“June, for gay pride. One peek and you are a queer. Socoles’ Greek tragedy updated for our modern paranoid times.”

“Okay.” David lifted the lid of a bamboo container. Inside glistened four egg tempura balls. He dropped one in the rice on his plate.

“David?” Evan reached across the table to touch David’s hand. “Why not give us another try?”

“You want more.”

“You cared for me. Suddenly it stopped. Why?”

“I suppose,” David flashed through their relationship, “it was because it was too simple. Too easy.”

“Guys always want what they haven’t got. And when they lose it, they want it back.”

“You want it back. I don’t.”

“David waiting for the perfect man is a great way to avoid getting close, when no one is perfect enough for you.”

“Thanks for thinking of me for this project, but I won’t have the time to give it the attention it deserves.” David paid for the meal. “Move on. Don’t stay stuck on me.”

“I’ve tried.” Evan followed him to the street.

“I’m not available. I have a great opportunity here that’ll take up more energy than you can imagine.”

He left Evan at the corner.

Zetta was in his workroom. She looked through his samples. “We have a client for you.”

“Great!” The right client could be a major break.

“TknoSonk liked your work. 4Give needs a style, and you are the one to give it to them.”

“Who else?” The group spun through his head in a series of sweaters, shirts, shorts, tear-away pants. “Yes. Yes. Get out of here so I can get to work.”

“Okay. The band will be here tomorrow.”

“I’ll have something by then.”

He pushed her out the door. As he sat at his work table, he wished there was a faster way to get the images that flashed in his head on to paper.

Kevin

The washroom was empty, cool and quiet. A peaceful break from the Mall crowd. After a stop for clothes the band had the rest of the day free.

He was pissing when someone come into the washroom. He said a silent prayer that it wasn’t the pushy girls who followed them to the security office. A man stood next to him. Kevin did up his fly and went to wash his hands.

“Quite a crowd.”

“Yeah.” Washroom manners made him avoid the man.

“You enjoy that gutless music stuff?” The man walked over to him. It was Mitch.

“What …”

“Long time no see, eh? You got cute.” Mitch reached out to  Kevin’s goatee. Kevin flinched.

“Sorrreee.” Mitch sneered. “Your fans know that you’re a cocksucker?”

“Mitch, you are so full of shit.”

“Really?” He stood between Kevin and the door. “The wages of sin look good on you. If you want to keep them, be nice to me.”

“What are you getting at?”

“They won’t be so adoring once they hear how I threw you out after you molested someone’s little boy in the sauna.”

“Screw you, Mitch.” He shoved Mitch.

“Listen,” He grabbed Kevin’s arm and spun him around. “The truth will set you free.” He locked his other arm around Kevin’s throat. “You ain’t got no one to protect you here.”

He pressed Kevin’s head against the cold tile.

“The scripture says to pray for sinners like you.”

“Pray for yourself, asshole.” Kevin tried to elbow his way free.

“The wages of sin are death. I want my cut before you die.”

“Money! Is that what you want? How much?”

“A grand a month.” Mitch let him loose.

“As if I had that much.”

“That’s not my problem. Don’t fuck with me Kevin, my boy. I’ll put the torch to your dreams, and with God on my side, I can get away with it.”

Steven

“Stan! An extra week of re-shoots?” Steven was exasperated.

“The marks were out of sync. Close doesn’t count.”

“Why not new graphics?” Steven asked.

“Re-shoots are cheaper. It shouldn’t take more than two days, three at the most. You know the scenes.”

“We can’t be computer-adjusted. Humans one, computers nothing.” Brian laughed.

“Make that Kiark one.” Steven sat on a cafeteria table. “Good thing I don’t have a life.”

“If it is any consolation, it’s ninety per cent sure that we’ll get picked up for a series.”

“I’ll speak to my lawyer about a raise.”

“Speaking of lawyers, I caught yours on TV.” Brian sat beside Steven.

“Mark Winslow?” Steven hadn’t spoken to Mark since the start of the trial.

“Yes. The case against those guys was open and shut. They all plead guilty, but point to each other as leader. Only the leader is a murderer, the others are mere accomplices, guilty of manslaughter, maybe, but not killers. Winslow was outside the courtroom suggesting they are all equally guilty.”

“Manslaughter? Murder? I’ll have to do a movie about lawyers to learn the difference.” Steven slid to his feet.

“You going on the stand?”

“Only if I have to. I taped a deposition. Once it gets around to sentencing, we’re supposed to make Victim Impact Statements.”

“Has there been much of an impact?”

They wove through the sets to the the dressing rooms.

“If we were Kiark, it would be easy to show you.” Steven made the Kiark gesture that opened a telepathic link. “But if you’ll excuse me, I have to get ready to meet the Kiark Council.”

Steven ducked into his dressing room. The impact of the attack wasn’t one he often entertained. When he did futility and powerlessness swept over him. The terrifying frustration of not being able to help Luke, then the constant HIV paranoia. How do you tell a judge about that and expect sympathy?

“Five minutes.” A knock at his door startled him.

“Right.” Steven grabbed his script. The first page of the scene was gone.

David

David wanted a nap as the sun warmed his workroom. He’d spent the past hour with skateboard, rollerblade and X-treme sport magazines to get an idea of what was in style. Chunky sneakers, oversized plaid shirts, body-hugger sweaters, calf-length shorts with color. Big baggy-ass pants would let 4Give dance without fear of injury, while tight lycra T’s kept those fresh young bodies on view. The basic forms were simple but the key to a 4Give style was to break from baggy.

A ruckus in the entry lobby brought a gust of fresh air with it. His door burst open.

“The boys are ‘ere,” Zetta called as DJ and Chris rushed into his workroom. “Dey couldn’t wait till tomorrow.”

“Can you handle these guys?” Teddi shook his hand.

“We’ll try. I’ll leave you in David’s capable ‘ands.”

Chris and DJ dived into David’s pile of magazines.

“I like this.” DJ flashed a page. “And this.” He was on to another page.

Rik chatted with Val. Kevin sat sullen in the foyer.

“We have a video shoot Monday.” Mario consulted his day planner. “Can you have something for us by then?”

“Off the rack, a snap.” David eyed Chris, DJ, Rik and Kevin. “Which number?”

“Dance Free.” Mario handed David a CD.

“We’ll cut in live footage.” Teddi explained. “Then something to fill it out. Dance club stuff.”

“How about Sixties retro.”

“I like it.” Teddi smiled. “Tight jump suits. Fringes.”

“Can do.” David saw himself zip them personally into those suits.

“Guys.” Teddi clapped her hands. “I’m going to leave you. Tell David what you think’ll work, and I will see what will work. Be at the studio day after tomorrow.”

She went to the lobby, Mario in tow.

The others clambered for David’s attention.

“One at a time. Check through these out here.” He plunked an arm load of magazines on the floor outside his office. “You, DJ Matt?”

“Right.”

“We’ll get measurements and you can tell me what bad fashion dream we can make come true. Val, find out if we have any of the catsuits that didn’t move last year.”

“Right on it.”

It didn’t take him long to deal with DJ and Chris. Chris knew his dimensions except the hip-to-butt ratio, which David explained was the difference between those baggy pants dropping off or clinging. Kevin had ducked out.

“Kevin made a phone call and took off. I’m last, eh Doc? What have the others –” Rik looked through the sketches David had made with DJ and Chris.

David nudged him off the chair and took his place. He was disappointed that Kevin had left.

Rik showed him pages in one magazine, with suggestions of how to alter the clothes. The sketches came out quick.

“Wow.” Rik pressed close to him to watch. “That is workin’.”

“Thanks.” David became aware of Rik’s closeness, the sheen of his skin. Black, but a different black from his.

“Warm in here” Rik unbuttoned his shirt.

“Val,” David pressed the intercom, “can you get us a couple of cold cokes?”

“How was the show at the mall?” David did a sketch of Rik.

“Wild crowd.”

“Nothing unexpected?”

“Kevin and Chris got a bit pissed at each other. Chris made some crack about Kevin being gay. We all know, but who gives a shit these days. Right. He was bugged quiet in the car. Not bad.” Rik watched over David’s shoulder.

The sketch showed Rik with his shirt open. Jeans hugged his waist, band of underwear peeked, a little path of pubic hair disappeared into the undies.

Kevin

In the limo, the after-show energy of the others irritated Kevin. There was no chance to talk with Teddi or Mario about Mitch. He was as hemmed in as he had been with Paul and Robert.

To be faced with David Walters when they got to Hornet Nest made his small world smaller. The stuffy offices sweltered, and the smell of fabric made him sick to his stomach. He couldn’t breath.

Once his measurements had been taken, he was ready to skip out. Teddi suggested he drop by to visit with her and Mario. Her invitations were veiled commands. As much he enjoyed the drugs and the sex, he was tired of her control. He called Paul, but there was no answer.

He slipped out when no eyes were on him. After a few deep breaths, his head cleared. The prospect of time away from 4Give made his steps lighter, despite the worry of Mitch.

“Don’t let what you don’t know, keep you from doing what you do know,” came into his mind. It was a favorite phrase of Shep’s. The thought of Shep slowed him. His unexpected visit had brought surprises for all of them.

Kevin was relieved they had stayed for the New Years show, though the time they had together was uncomfortable. He wasn’t sorry he had told them the truth, but regretted the way that truth had shut down communication.

They had managed chit-chat about Deb and the state of Shep’s business. Kevin had tried to get time alone with Shep, but it never happened. Was that deliberate? He fantasized that Shep had urges he was afraid to express, and to have Deb present kept them at bay.

Deb had broached the subject of Kevin’s sexuality. She asked him if it might something be he was going through. Kevin half wanted to agree to put her mind at ease, but it was unfair to let her build hope when there was none.

He got his wallet out for subway money and a business card fell into the snow. This is what I need. A new face in my life. Someone from the outside.

He used his cell-phone. On the fourth ring, the answering machine picked up.

“Dr. Fish here …” was interrupted by a real voice “Hi?”

“Stewart?”

“Yes? Who is this?” Water bubbled.

“Kevin McLeod. You gave me your card.”

“What’s the problem? What kind of fish do you have?”

“Uh … none.”

“Asshole.” Stewart hung up.

Was this as sign to forget it? His phone rang.

“Hello, Kevin?”

“Hi.”

“Sorry. Thank God for star sixty-nine.”

“That’s all right. That fish stuff caught me off guard.”

“What can I do for you?”

He’d assumed that Stewart was gay, but there was nothing in his appearance or actions to confirm that.

“What’s with that noise?”

“Oh, my aquarium. Fifty gallons. You didn’t call to talk about that, did you?”

“No.” There was a light sexual tease in Stewart’s voice that gave Kevin the assurance he needed. “What are you up to?”

“Just a ball-breaking grant application deadline. Why?”

“We might … um … get together for a drink or something.”

“I don’t know. I — Okay. Where are you?”

“Yonge and Dundas. Eaton Centre.”

“Not too bad. I’ll meet you at the Bathurst Station.”

“That’s west?” Kevin hadn’t travelled much outside of his east side route.

“Yes. I’ll be waiting for you. Bye.”

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Cathy Petch hosted another packed house & dynamic line up at Plasticine’s May show. First up was Marni Van Dyk. She read ‘Sisters Always’ a short story from a collection, presently called: ‘Please Don’t Touch Me Please.’ A wry meditation on a young woman’s longing for a sister. Invited by her roommate to spend Thanksgiving in a family of many sisters she realizes she’d rather the fantasy of sisters than the reality. Clear images propelled the story: ‘my ears felt hot but I played it cool,’ ‘served us cocktail weenies on napkins and bowls of licorice.’

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s’no scene

She was followed by Daniel Scott Tysdal. His opening piece was playful, theatrical and funny. A female poet on stage read, then he, in the audience gave writer’s notes on what she had read, then at random points in the audience, questions where asked. Very effective with some strong images thrown in: ‘the room smelled of wildflowers and stale bread,’ ‘this is the same light that shatters against the poems like glass.’ His pieces were energetic, poetic and playful. We all want ‘a spell you can cast to lull memory.’

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s’no structure

After the break David Day talked about disappearing wildlife and read from his book ‘Never More.’ We understood and felt his grief and frustration over the depletion of the planet. ‘blood pulsing from the furnace of the deep heart,’ ‘the great breath song thru the sighing night.’ His image of the world like a roc’s egg – white and smooth but hollow and bereft of life touched most of us.

David Day's Roc egg

David Day’s Roc egg

Final feature was Clara Blackwood  – I heard/saw Clara recently at the Damned. She read many of the same pieces from her forthcoming book ‘Forecasts’ – often humorous, tender, full of clear images and romantic, her pieces are a delight to hear. ‘I lose pounds just thinking about my childhood,’ ‘walls as wide as lovers’ eyes,’ ‘new schemes charges laid.’ An excellent set.

The open stagers where piled up at the end of things where we had to contended with tables being cleared by staff, and people departing as noisily as they could.

my coming attractions

my coming attractions

June 5 – Wednesday – attending – Tommy

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June 9 – Sunday – attending – Cabaret Noir

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June 13 – Thursday – attending – The Beautiful and The Damned

June 24-28 – attending – Rosemary Aubert’s Fiction Writer’s How To

cozy bed at Loyalist

cozy bed at Loyalist

August 22-25 – attending – FanExpo 2013

 

possible cover for  City of Valleys

possible cover for
City of Valleys

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excerpt 45

City of Valleys 

February

David

 

“That’s nice.” Lin tapped one of the summer frocks David had sketched. A week after the 4Give appearance she offered him a design position.

David didn’t understand why the supportive attention Hornet Nest offered unnerved him more than the pushy unpredictable demands of Miss Ing or Tisu Trauma. Perhaps because their enthusiasm was always apparent, while Zetta’s reactions were slow and limited to a couple of words.

“Thanks.” He went to the next page.

“Nice.” Zetta blew smoke away from him. While enthusiasm for his design work wasn’t effusive, her face brightened when he brought in swatches or detail items.

“That’s all.” The next page was blank.

“Okay then. Let’s see this one and this one.” Lin checked off two of the sketches.

“Yellow floral and …” Zetta looked to him.

“The strawberry print?” David held up a sample of it.

“Yeah. Perfect.”

Once they left his workroom, David breathed a sigh of relief. These were the first designs of his they had accepted and now he might have two pieces in the summer line.

“You have something for me?” George popped in.

George was a cutter at Hornet Nest who specialized in first cuts. He’d run up a muslin rough.

“Ohh. Sweet.” George pursed his lips. “Lin and Zetta are way too grey. Color will be welcome.”

“Thanks.” Cutters were more direct than anyone else in the shop.

“Baby, we haven’t had waists like this for a while. You’ll want to hold the skirts out. Oh, I’d kill to do crinolines.”

“I’ll keep that in mind.”

“Yellow floral … that’s lot number 56B and, oooh glorious, strawberries. Lot 79A. I’ve been dying to cut into that since you brought it in. Solid red bolero jacket. Miss Ing will kill you.”

In his first week at Hornet Nest, George had introduced himself as a fan of David’s drag work.

“A bit understated.”

“No dress on a man is understated.” George left with the sketches.

David stretched his neck and shoulders. After a week there he had bought another H’matta. The face was painted in stripes of white, yellow and green, with a large tuft of red feathers from the top of the head. In the hollow forehead that faced the wall, he had pinned a photo of Kevin he had taken at one of 4Give’s mall appearances.

At that time, he had been amazed at the transformation in Kevin. At Big E’s he had been a comfortable, gregarious performer, but with 4Give he had become another person. He had become a gleaming, clean, teen magnet. He was no longer the boy who had fallen asleep on his couch.

There was something about Kevin that David couldn’t pin down as easy as the photo H’matta had been asked to deliver in the flesh.

 

Steven

 

“Okay, we’re rolling. Rain.” Stan Davis called out.

Steven stood uncertain in the rain, held his hands up to stare at them, kept them far enough away for the camera to see his face while it saw what he looked at. He moved his dripping hands down slowly, palms inward, to check his torso.

He straightened, brought his hands to his side and peered to an off-camera ladder. Three stagehands crowded on it, each a few steps above the other. Each held a cardboard with a duct-taped “X”. The icy water from the rain pipes stung his eyes as they look from one X to the next, to the next, and to a final one.

A tear formed as he stepped towards that final X, one hand reached out to it. He sunk to the alien forest floor. The forest set was small, and he had to fall so that it’s limit didn’t show.

“Good. Kill rain.” Stan nodded. “We nailed it.”

“Okay.” Stan came from behind the thicket of cameras, sound booms, light rigs. “We need a close up of these.” He held his hands up as Steven had. “From over his shoulder. Then we’ll need a tight shot of the eyes looking up.”

“Right.” A stagehand pointed to where Steven had to stand for the over-the-shoulder. “Here first and then back to,” he stepped beside Steven, “where you were for the head tilt. Do we want to shoot down his hand as it reaches out? Zoom to face?”

Makeup came out to dab at Steven’s foundation.

“Nice cry. How do you keep it down to one? When I start I can’t stop.” She regarded her handiwork. “That’s better.”

“Ready?”

Steven was used to his status as a prop, to be handled into position, lit right, moved to do the same actions from different angles. He brought his hands up for Garta to sense any damage to his body. He had come to after being sedated on the Human Spaceship. He was in a wooded area behind the mound of houses that was his village. The gaze up was to follow the Earth vessel recede with his mate Frila.

The closeup of his eyes, of his tear, would merge into an image of her as she reached out to him in pain, while she was examined by the humans in the ship.

Steven’s tear came from the memory of his mother. His Dad had passed away and it was time to come out to her. She stiffened at the news and patted his hand. She was glad he had waited till his father was dead. A single tear came down her cheek.

“Next set up, Garta home, 15cx. Twenty minutes.” Stan went to the other side of the studio.

“I’m wet. Make that forty minutes.” Steven pushed his cowl. The wet cape was heavy. It rained a lot on Kiark.

On the wall by his mirror was a list of his scenes, and he was glad to scratch off another. The four that remained were more complex. These would be group scenes with several of the other Kiark, as he attempted to explain what had become of Frila.

He ran his hand over the stubble on his head. The Kiark had no body hair, which made the head pieces bearable, but meant no eyebrows, eyelashes. His forearms had all been shaved to above the elbows. He was grateful he had no shirtless scenes.

He peeled off his wet costume and hung it to drip over a bucket. The costume next to it was damp. His third was dry. He put on a bathrobe and huddled close to the heater.

His cellphone rang.

“Drip Dry and Company.”

“How’s it going?”

“Good, Luke. Almost on schedule. Rain is fucking cold.”

“Gives me something to warm up when you get home.”

“Enough smut. My costume doesn’t allow for a Kiark erection.”

“I’m just calling to see what time you’ll be home, say I love you, that sort of stuff.”

“I love you too. See you around nine, ten at the latest.”

He and Luke had talked once or twice a day since the shoot had started. As a result, he felt closer to Luke. He looked forward to this contact with his real life.

There was a knock at his door. “Ready in five, Garta.”

“Okay.” He dressed in his dry costume. He couldn’t find the dry cowl and took the less damp one and adjusted his protractor.

 

Kevin

 

Kevin sat at the end of a table in the TknoSonk store. Next to him were Rik, Chris and DJ at the far end. It was the last of the autograph session.

“How ya doing?” Rik giggled with the girl in front of him.

“Okay? You still with Jenta?”

“Solid.” He wrote his name on the CD case.

“Oh.” Her face fell.

“Keeps us on the air.” He winked as if to say if it weren’t for Jenta, he’d leap over the table for her.

Kevin envied the others’ ease. It was easy for him to talk to press, to Jenta, but the ordinary folk tongue-tied him. It was difficult to pretend to these sweet, mostly teenage girls that he was available to them.

“Try Kevin here.” Rik pushed the CD case along to him. “He’s single.”

“Oh, that’s okay!” She grabbed the CD case and merged into the crowd.

“Everyone isn’t your fan after all.”

“That’s okay, Chris. You can have all the jailbait you want.”

Since New Year’s, Chris’s attitude had changed towards him. He had dropped hints that Teddi listened to Kevin’s input for talents other than his musical talents.

“Hi.” A 4Give poster appeared on the table.

“Hi.” Kevin looked at what he figured was a twelve-year-old girl. Behind her stood her brother, a large man in a University of Toronto jacket. The man’s bushy beard must be to make him look older.

“Hi.” The brother nudged her. “What do you say, Kate?”

It was hard to tell who was more embarrassed, the sister with her big brother over her shoulder, or the big brother over her shoulder.

“Stop it, Stu.” She glared up at Stu. Her hair was as black as her brother’s.

“Kate. What shall I write?”

“To Stu – pid.” She pushed back at her brother.

Stu shrugged. His jacket had ‘U of T Med Sci’ with dates stitched on the shoulder.

“You don’t want that. How about ‘To Kate, love Kevin’?”

“It’s Katlyn, K-A-T-L-Y-N.” Once the right name had been written, she pushed the poster along to Rik.

“You know Paul Staverson?”

Stu paused. “Dr. Tat?”

“Yeah.” Kevin laughed.

“You know him?”

“I …” Kevin glanced around, this was not the place for a conversation about notorious campus queers.

“Right. Here.” Stu handed him a business card. “Call me.” He disappeared after his sister.

Kevin glanced at the card. It read:

“Stewart O’Connor

Doctor Fish”

A phone number in one corner and a www site in the other. He shoved it in his back pocket.

“Hey Kev,” Chris sniggered. “A hit with guys and gals.”

Kevin lunged at Chris.

“Be cool. Not in front of fans.” Rik stopped him.

Kevin sat back down.

“He was getting what you are getting with Teddi.” Rik whispered. “Not that I understand why he’d miss it. Been there, done that.”

Kevin took a breath and sat. Katlyn was in front of DJ. Stu’s watchful hand on her shoulder. Stu’s eyes were fixed on him.

 

Yves

 

The radio show went well. Dan Day had read the book, but he was more interested in gay issues than biological functions.

When he opened the lines to listeners, Dan made it clear it was an invitation to comment on homosexuals. The first few calls were not as confrontational as Dan wanted.

“We got a live one at last. Caller, you are on the air.” He slumped with a satisfied smile at Yves.

“Abomination. A man that lies with another is an abomination and shall not be allowed to live.”

“Leviticus?” Yves spoke into the microphone.

“The word of God, you perv.”

“Are you familiar with everything in that chapter? I presume you follow all the dietary rules laid down in Leviticus. Or do you take the parts that suit you and ignore the rest?”

“You’re twisting God’s words.”

“What did Christ say about such abominations?” Yves asked.

The line went dead.

“What did Christ say?” Don picked up the conversation.

“Nothing.” Yves didn’t want to get into a scripture-slinging match. “He died for our sins, not for our natural desires.”

“Are you claiming homosexuality is natural?” The caller light flashed on before Yves’ answer. “Caller, you are on the air.”

“All you queers care about is sex.” It was another male. “You write a book about private parts because that’s all you think about. Right?”

“Thinking about sex is a guy thing, not a queer thing.”

“At least I don’t read books about my dick.”

“You think I have sex with guys as often as you wish you could with women?” Yves asked.

“Its sick!”

“What? Not to be ashamed of sex? What’s sick about that.”

“Everything.” The line went dead.

“We’re out of time. I’d like to thank Yves LaPointe for taking the time to talk to us. He’ll be signing copies of his book at Baker Books tomorrow afternoon. Now over to the Noon Crew for news, weather and sports.”

In the lobby, Yves was zipping up his parka when a man grabbed his arm.

“Yves!”

“Tom?”

s'no purses

s’no purses

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