Sex Drivers’ Ed

23redtubes02Andrew Gurza has rebranded himself as Disability After Dark – the thrust of his focus remains the same – to shed light (& clothes) in his exploration of hot sex & disability. After a hiatus in which he moved, reaccessed his goals, his podcast has returned to iTunes with a welcome burst of direct, honest & human commentary.23redstratford01On one he talks about his ‘sex drive’ & comes to the conclusion that often he finds himself using sex to initiate contact, even when he isn’t particularly interested in sex. It’s as if wihtout sexual interest there is no interest. Maybe it isn’t as simplistic as that – there are studies that show attractive people get preferential treatment which is linked, somehow, to propagation of the species – we select to mate with what we find attractive.23redfabric04Some of that is hardwired – what we are attracted to isn’t so hardwired – but that subtext of sexual possibility plays a role in all our interactions. So we unconsciously use that as much as it uses us. So Andrew relying on sex to initiate contact isn’t such an unusual trait.23redtubes03This enters the territory of FWB – friends with benefits – though many claim to want benefits without being friends I’ve never found that satisfying. Friends without benefits I enjoy but benefits without friendliness isn’t for me. Once upon a time I was driven by my sex drive – there was more than one hit-and-run with me behind the wheel or under someone else’s wheels. As I’ve gotten older I’ve become less reckless but still enjoy the ride.samp02

The Escape Plan

there was no one to talk to

no one to trust

bags were packed

the escape plan was ready

the secret was kept

because as long as

the bags were packed

it was bearable

never questioning why

why not just get out

why not tell

why stick around in a situation

where bags must be packed

when an escape plan is needed

where secrets must be kept

putting up with the suspicions

isn’t proof of character

isn’t a demonstration

of the depths of love   commitment

but of a need to suffer

or a need for approval

from someone

who only approves of blind obedience

 

as long as that secret is kept

like that packed bag

you can relish that isolation

an identity forged by forbearance

of circumstances

‘beyond your control’

so you never need discover

an identity of your own

when its always their fault

you can remain perfectsoon02

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Early 2017:

my first local feature in over a year: location date TBA

it came in

April season 3 FINALS – Friday April 15th Buddies in Bad Times – early show – 7pm startgames

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June 2-4: attending: Capturing Fire 2017 –

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Gluten Free

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Another of the 48 Laws of Power by Robert Green as a writing prompt.

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Law 37: Create Compelling Spectacles

I couldn’t take my eyes off the screen

I followed every moment

from the very first cellphone video

the Facebook feed was mesmerizing

the tweets head spinning

the pundits were informative

I couldn’t get enough

the close up of the bleeding

were heart rending

I was washed by this flood

of compassion

dismay dispair

that this had happened

innocent people

men women children

killed maimed

forced to leave their homes

clubs churches

no safe place

shown no mercy

by their attackers or the press

I had to watch

flipping channels

media devices

to get the latest feed

the freshest atrocity

to feed my growing sense of outrage

drowning in powerless

hopeless

oh look

Burger King now has gluten free buns

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Aw Shucks

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Aw Shucks

it wasn’t as if I did it on purpose

I wasn’t looking to out do anyone

except perhaps myself

what’s the point being accomplished

if you have to always be mindful

of those who hold power over you

who become so defensive

that anyone else’s accomplishments

are threats

it wasn’t as if I did it on purpose

I just didn’t know well enough

to to keep that to myself

I should have said

‘aw shucks

I’m still catching up to you’

or

‘I owe it all to others –

gifted teachers

result in good students’

nope I had to say

‘thanks

I’m amazed at myself too’

I didn’t reflect light back on them

my bad

them resentful

wielding their influence

to keep me in my place

to teach me a lesson

that no matter how good I think I am

how good they say I am

I am nothing

until they say so

and they never say

I outshine them21blackchair02This first prompt took three tries before I felt I’d dealt with it sufficiently. Because it was the first one I also wanted to get used to applying these business concepts to non-business. I don’t think any of the three is a great success because I don’t mind outshining if that should or even happens.21blackchair01So the semi-apologetic stance in each of them lacks conviction. That stance comes from the need to appear humble – for some reason to appear confidence, self-assured & aware comes cross to many as arrogance & egotism. Humble is seen as being more authentic than confidence is.21woodchair03In reading this attempt it also reflects my impatience with TV ‘reality’ competition shows in which the contestants are always striving to make their families proud, competing for their spouses – rarely does anyone say I want to win because I am the best. Winning for the sake of winning just isn’t humble – it has to be for the memory of your dad who recently died of cancer.21woodchair04There’s also a sense of how much credit do you give others – as in using these Laws as prompts – I’m sure grateful for Green for putting this list together – do I have to reach back to acknowledge Machiavelli too? Because these owe a lot to that history  – where does Shakespeare come in for his bow (that is if he’s responsible for his works). Everything comes from somewhere – this is my take (or mis-take) on things & ultimately can be credited only to my brain cells firing at a given time & place.  Ah shucks t’wern’t nothin’.soon

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my first local feature in over a year: location date TBA

it came in

April season 3 FINALS – Friday April 15th Buddies in Bad Times – early show – 7pm startgames

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June 2-4: attending: Capturing Fire 2017 –

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#Cruisin’ Through Time

Next up is the Cruisin’ series of lps that recreated, from actual tapes the times, rock’n’roll radio shows – each year with its own lp from 1955 to 1970. (http://leemichaelwithers.tripod.com/cruisin.htm). I had some of the original lps issues but replaced them with mp3s when I found set of the entire series. I spaced them out over 3 cds. I love the music in historical context, the radio ads of the times, the political climate, as well as real weather reports. The mp3 contents differs from lps due to song rights.19glassdoor03

Moving from the doo-wop era to the Nam war protest era. On the first CD are years 55/56/57/58/59. To which I added Birth of Rock: early Phil Spectre; The Four Seasons Best of: Valle’s falsetto in monumental & Walk Like A Man, Big Girls Don’t Cry are classics. Moonglows sweet doo-wop harmonies; the same with the Five Satins. All of whom appear in these first radio recordings too.19blackdoor04On the next is years 60/61/62/63/64/65. I rounded this out with a compilation of Kim Fowley: a seminal rock figure who is too easily forgotten – he started as a Hollywood Argyle with the unforgettable Alley Oop. His life story & music deserves a Broadway production if not a movie & needs more space than I can give him. The Wikipedia article is excellent https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kim_Fowley. To this I added some Flash Cadillac: excellent 60’s style rock.19whitedoor01The final CD covers: 66/67/68/69/70. This was my prime radio listening time. So may of these songs bring back memories of waiting a phone to ring while pretending to do my homework but really writing a bad poem. To this I added best of the Turtles for the retro Cali sound; more Flash Cadillac; their Sons of a Beach is the best Beach Boys album the Beach Biys never recorded. Finally out of Australia: Daddy Cool – a down-under band full of that rock fever with new (at the time) songs than could have been recorded back in the day. 19whitedoor02These are great cds for long drives – miles & miles going through years of music – moving though space & time. The perfect comic book style Crusin’ covers tell a story that advances from year to year too. It’s a brilliant series that captures the USA better than anything else I’ve come across. I say USA as all the stations are American so one gets a real grass-roots radio sense of those times. sample

Heartless

Brin was lifted into the air by the force of the lightening. He expected to be crushed against the wall or the floor but instead found himself plunged into a fine mist. His hands disintegrated into separate molecules before his eyes. His body became tiny beads that spun away in all directions and then reformed into the pattern of his body. Only now his body was grains of sand.

‘What is happening.’ his question boomed and softened, echoed and fell flat.

‘I don’t know?’ came Singa’s reply. The monitor was still working!

‘Have no fear.’ a voice spoke from behind Brin.

Brin attempted to turn around but couldn’t.

‘Who is it? Who is there?’

‘Have no fear.’ the voice repeated.

Brin stilled his mind. He found memory of calm. A day when he and Singa had sat in the midst of fresh falfa and listened to the cl’k bt’ls fly over head.

‘Very good.’ the figured appeared before him. ‘I am the Heartless One. The One to whom all is owed and to whom all returns.’

‘God! Are you God?’

‘Brin this is not the time for such tautological discussion. Theological abstractions will be of little use to you now or to the Earth.’

‘You are the Time Keeper.’

‘I told you who I am. The Heartless  One. You just listen to me now. I have three messages for you to bring back. If the world heeds these messages hope remains.’

‘If not?”

‘That is not my worry after all I am the Heartless One. The first message is to open the walls. Time has stopped and the only way to start it again is to open the walls. In doing so they must consecrate the lives of all to the immaculate heart of life. That is the second message.’

‘Immaculate heart? I don’t understand.’

‘You don’t have to understand. You just have to carry these messages.’

‘And third message?’

Heartless One’s breath was warm in Brin’s ear as he whispered the third message.

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my first local feature in over a year: location date TBA

it came in

April season 3 FINALS – Friday April 15th Buddies in Bad Times – early show – 7pm startgames

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June 2-4: attending: Capturing Fire 2017 –

newcap

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A Chorus Line

I was looking forward to the Festival’s production of A Chorus Line & was not disappointed. The singing was fantastic, the dancing was good to superb, the staging was solid (if not inventive) & the orchestra was excellent. No wigs or elaborate costumes to distract from the emotional core of the piece until the gold lame & sequins hit the stage for the big finale.17-stratsky03Donna Feore handles a large cast well – each performer comes across as a distinct character – even those who merely dance in the audition scene than opens the show. Nearly 20 men & women on the stage at one time who kick-ball-change, jette, spin at the same time without bumping into each other. Fast paced, dynamic & tireless while also singing, doing monologues and projecting without pulling focus – amazing & breathtaking work.17-stratsky04The emotional substance of the text is still relevant today even with the advances in gay rights people coming out are still being rejected by their families. But at the time these were brave words to present on stage. To pick out a particular monologue or performer is unfair as each of the performers give satisfying & real performances. As the text covers a wide range of types I was somewhat disappointed there were no lesbian show girls.17-stratpicnic01I did enjoy Ayrin Mackie as Shelia & Matt Alfano as Mike. Matt’s tap routine was, for me, one of the solo dance highlights of the show. The choreography was solid, much of it dictated by the actual text so Donna was somewhat constrained & as such the dancing was of the early 70’s period when the show was first produced. Stalwart as opposed to inventive. The one routine that didn’t work for me was Cassie’s big number: a five minute routine that seemed like twenty. There was more energy in the music & lighting than in the steps – what it needed was a dash of Travis Wall (So You Think You Can Dance?) to elevate it. What I Did For Love was sublime & there was crying in the aisles.17-stratpicnic02This is one singular production that I would highly recommend. The other Festival productions I saw this season are:  A Little Night Music: http://wp.me/p1RtxU-1Rn; The Hypochondriac: http://wp.me/p1RtxU-1X6

sample

Angel Spoons

Angel spoons

tap the soles of my feet

the spoons have stirred coffee

so they are warm   sweet

sugar flows up through me

sings a little song

under every word I speak

gives them a little tingle

of the dance of the clouds

of the java of hava a good day

hava a good time

become a friend of mine

as we can dance together

while angel spoons play

the way we see the world

the still the twirled

the rapid the desired

the quick of fire

sleek of the stream cup

the liquorice tango tangle

that wraps us black   red

on and off the bed

the zig zag zip that locks us

into a cascading tinkle of spoons

on the roof of our mouths

dangles off the eaves of the night

trapping and romancing

the streetlight

the ginger cat fragrance

of fresh brewed mood

the moon reflects so small

off the golden toe nails

of the jangling moments

 

angel spoons echo

through the time left

to get from the night to the day

they giggle with play

insinuate into the silence

with their small silver chime

I hear a faint near jingle

reflect darting glints

over the faces of the dancing people

suspended inches over the ground

swirling twirling shirts shirts

fleshy fragrant

breathing revolving

the happy tappy grace

angel spoons nudge us in circles

like coffee

warm sweet

wishing the well to one and all

sprawling calling

recalling the tickle in the blood

that means prayers have been answered

our soaring spirits aren’t sore footed

from glancing off the sun

to bridge the gap between

the tinkle and the ear

the click strum of spoons

on the palm

carries a message

drops us back into the endless fold

where we can enjoy

angel spoons

tapping on the soles of our feet

soon

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December – Thursday Dec 1st – Toronto, 8 pm, Buddies in Bad Times Theatre, 12 Alexander St.divine

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Early 2017:

my first local feature in over a year: location date TBA

it came in

April season 3 FINALS – Friday April 15th Buddies in Bad Times – early show – 7pm startgames

http://www.queerslam.com/season-3-dates.html

June 2-4: attending: Capturing Fire 2017 –

newcap

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check out these poets from Capturing Fire 2015: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCx5KD1eDccdjdTdQ28kZRNg

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Summer of Love Poetry 2

Each of these writers enriched my world view with a deeper sense of ‘otherness.’ My view is pretty wide already but it still limited by my white cismale reality. I grew up an east coast town where I didn’t meet anyone of another race until I left high-school (long story for another blog post.) But growing up queer give me a radically different pov on the world around me. But even the queer world can be narrow focused so meeting these fine fearless – no fearless is the wrong word, because they have their fears, but is there a word for people who aren’t held back by their fears?red lights

The other collections I read this past summer are:

venus selenite is another writer I first met at Fire 2015 & who at Fire 2016 launched ‘trigger’ her first collection. Political, polemic, direct & effective pieces in a collection that overflows with styles, structures & even some humour. A ‘trigger’ warning is something poets are to state before presenting a piece that contains material that may cause adverse emotional reactions: i.e. childhood sexual abuse. venus challenges us with the fact that her very trans-self may trigger regardless of content. 16redhockey03Slipform: Moon Salt – this is the departure collection – pieces produced by several poets during the Slipform workshop. Each in a different structure: sonnet, triad & all successful. I did a small version of the workshop at Fire 2016 & really like the alphabet form – each line starts with the next letter in the alphabet.16redlights01Finally is Francisco-Luis White’s Found Them. I heard Francisco at Fire 2016 but they didn’t have copies of this fresh from the press chap book. I downloaded mine from Amazon. The pieces deal with gender, romance & queer sexuality without gender. Highly personal, deeply felt & resonant they present a process of realization that invites the reader rather than challenges them – the realizations seems so matter-of-fact one wonders why anyone would be stressed or triggered by such basic human evolution.

I’m not a critic or even a sociological analyst – just a white gay guy who reads & writes poetry. I’m not trans, my struggles haven’t been racial profiled, yet I find my human need for acceptance & the search for a voice & someone to listen to it, is the same. I no longer burn with the anger that fuels some of these writers – mine was dampened when I saw that it wasn’t rational for me to demand an understanding world when I didn’t really understand myself. Besides understanding is over-rated :-) 16redme04Search these writers out – you might find your worldview enriched in unexpected ways too.

Vita E https://www.facebook.com/twocpoetry/

Dane Figueroa Edidi http://www.ladydanefe.com

kay kassirer http://kaykassirer.com

Angelique Palmer http://angeliquepalmer.wixsite.com/poetteachermother

Slipform: Moon Salt http://www.whatevennou.com/slipform/

venus selenite: https://venusselenite.com

Francisco-Luis White https://www.amazon.com/Found-Them-Francisco-Luis-White/dp/1530643376

read part 1 here: Summer of Love Poetry 1 http://wp.me/p1RtxU-1Yz

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Innocent As Charged

I would never do that

trust me

that isn’t my style

I’m not ever going to try it

I know better

so should you

yes I’ve tried many things

will continue to do so

but that isn’t one of them

I know it wouldn’t suit me

not at my age

not at this stage of my life

it would be creative suicide

really

I’m pushing my own boundaries

but never in that direction

I would look desperate

as if I wanted to seem hipper

than I am

or than I think I am

because

being hip

isn’t that important to me

I’d rather be myself

the self I am at the moment

not the one from last year

or even last week

I change often enough

without adding that

I’m not out to reinvent myself

but at the same time

I don’t want to be always

presenting the same identity

there’ll never be such a radical shift

I have several of them anyway

some are just more expected than others

so expected

that even when I don’t deliver the usual

people remember it as being

more of the same

change isn’t enough

but somethings I won’t do

just for attention

that is one of them

does that surprise you?

you thought I’d be willing

to do anything

that I was a spot light whore

willing to do what it takes

I’ve surprised you once again

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my first local feature in over a year: location date TBA

it came in

April season 3 FINALS – Friday April 15th Buddies in Bad Times – early show – 7pm startgames

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June 2-4: attending: Capturing Fire 2017 –

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Too Not Much

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Another of the 48 Laws of Power by Robert Green as a writing prompt.

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Law 36: Disdain things you cannot have

it would have been too much work

too much responsibility

there so many other things

I would rather do

it was enough to have the chance

I didn’t set out

with that in mind

so the fact that it didn’t happen

doesn’t bother me a bit

I had nothing to prove

my family us proud of me

they were thrilled I had the opportunity

they were not let down

when I didn’t get the win

they knew it would mean

I’d have less time for them

helping and growing with them

is more important

Ii am already blessed enough

my life is so full now

I couldn’t have taken on

more responsibility  more acclaim

I have too much going on

I have to find a way of doing less

not taking on more

no matter who profitable

or how much it might

enhance my reputation

I don’t need any more exposure

money is too much work to maintain

I’m happy to keep my life simple

there are those who thrive

on that sort of accomplishment

I’m not one of them

having this opportunity

confirmed that for me

I have too much of what I value

to care about winning

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Holding Back

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Holding Back

it’s a tricky opportunity to maneuver

holding back

yet needing to step up to the plate

at the same time

not wanting to be a show off

while needing to establish one’s ability

not wanting to impress

to pull attention to oneself

to such a degree

that others are threatened

that the teacher is looking

to you for approval

rather than the other way around

the power shift is never productive

better to

let the facilitator hold the responsibility

keep the show off as quiet as possible

even though

every time I open my mouth

I seem to be showing off

if I don’t participate

I come off being silently judgmental14bluechair01This was another run at that first law only in a less public context. It springs from various (spell check wants me to say ‘arduous’) workshops I’ve participated in over the years. Some of this is observational of how others have interacted & some is how I’ve learned to interact myself.14bluechair02I am not shy in these situations & am always willing to be the first to contribute but I have learned to pace myself in different ways. I hold back on my ‘history’ revealing only what is relevant at the moment. In those inevitable introductions I no long mention my performance experience beyond most recent. I’ll only talk about other workshops if asked. 14redchair03There is always a pecking order in workshops -= people who know the ‘teacher’ & who may have then multiple workshops with them before, people who know each other, people who aha been taken a workshop & sometimes even people who have never written before who get either swamped & can’t keep up.14redchair04There’s often someone who has to prove they are better than everyone or that they know more then the ‘teacher.’ I love workshops where I don’t know anyone, not even the leader. It allows me to be anonymous, someone with no history. Though introducing myself as TOpoet.ca creates its own set of expectations even bro they hear anything I haver to say about writing (or whatever the workshop is about).

I don’t consider it a success, more like notes to toward a longer less self-centered piece. Sometimes the prompt runs out of steam. I would find a sense of ending if I considered performing or printing this piece. Prompts of Power http://wp.me/p1RtxU-1Y6

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December – Thursday Dec 1st – Toronto, 8 pm, Buddies in Bad Times Theatre, 12 Alexander St.divine

http://www.queerslam.com/season-3-dates.html

6DC0301

Early 2017:

my first local feature in over a year: location date TBA

it came in

April season 3 FINALS – Friday April 15th Buddies in Bad Times – early show – 7pm startgames

http://www.queerslam.com/season-3-dates.html

June 2-4: attending: Capturing Fire 2017 –

newcap

https://capfireslam.org

check out these poets from Capturing Fire 2015: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCx5KD1eDccdjdTdQ28kZRNg

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And The #Winner Is

Another season of SYTYCD crowns this year’s favourite dancer – the judges stress there are no losers, how proud they are of each of the dancers etc etc etc but I wouldn’t want to be the grief counsellor for the the top three who don’t get crowned. It’s always a matter of personality in the long run but talent sure can help & the top four had lots of both. The winner Kida was no exception but he didn’t amazed me until his AfroJazz routine to Din Din Da Da. 13-pinkhat-01The judges favourite routines came as no surprise. For me they begin to blur into those momentary isolation locks, or hands reaching out for some distant ideal, or eyes peering at that same ideal, or a small fry being tossed round by their partner like a feathered boa. The competitors all delivered in any genre they were challenged with even when they didn’t quite get the finer points of say, ballroom technique. 13-blackmonkey-03As usual Can Dance introduces me to lots of fine music. Shawn McDonald’s Over the Rainbow reinvented that song, as did Sarah Vaughn’s take on Send In The Clown; DaDaDa was reinvigorated by Kevin Aviance’s take on it; Son Lux ‘You Don’t Own Me’ wow. I’m surprised there isn’t an annual compilation cd of the music or at least an iTunes site devoted just to the music so one doesn’t have to search for it after putting the show on pause just to write down the name of the song & the performer.13-blackshoe-03I enjoyed many things about this season. The next generation was a smart idea to refresh the show and I hope they got the audience numbers for another season. I love seeing the all-stars; Can Dance, the the Food Network, gives its past contestants lots of work even if they lose their particular season. I really like the episode where the kids did the choreography.

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I did get tired of the same judges every week. I suppose that was financial decision. But I missed Mary Murphy (none of these kids could be put on the tamale train I suppose). Toni Basil was probably too old school scary for this next generation. Reinventing the show can’t be easy. What next – the Geritol Generation?

sampleDancing and Necking

Lorna and I

moved around each other

to the push-n-shove of rock-n-roll

she was 14 and I was 15

that we were awkward didn’t matter

we were happy

as long as there was distance between us

at the first waltz we sat in the bleachers

after it was over

she pulled me into the dance

where we made windmills to the music

 

the boys not dancing

feigned a disdain of everything

they claimed to want to get some chick

outside into their Dad’s cars

Lorna and I laughed at them

as we caught our breath between songs

when another waltz came up

she pulled me tight to her

she smelled of roses

put her head on my shoulder

just like a song

I could feel her heartbeat

as we turned in small circles

her breasts pressed into me

my hand moved along her warm back

felt her bra strap

the mystery of undergarments

her head moved into my damp neck

I was startled when she licked my ear

 

I turned my face to hers

before I knew it we were kissing

turning in small circles

her tongue in my mouth

mine dizzy in hers

and I sighed

finally doing something

to prove that I was as much a guy

as those boys

who would never take

me out to their Dads’ carssoon

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November 1 – 30 Participating NaNoWriMo

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December – Thursday Dec 1st – Toronto, 8 pm, Buddies in Bad Times Theatre, 12 Alexander St.divine

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Early 2017:

my first local feature in over a year: location date TBA

it came in

April season 3 FINALS – Friday April 15th Buddies in Bad Times – early show – 7pm startgames

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June 2-4: attending: Capturing Fire 2017 –

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Croce Crosby

Jim Croce dominated the charts for a time. At first he struck me as an American Gordon Lightfoot with his folk-rock sound. I have on an MP3 collection filed under Don McLean, his three lps: Don’t Mess Around With Jim; Got A Name; Life & Times. And as a stand-alone the hits collection: Photographs & Memories.12bluewhitedoor03I did have a Don’t Mess as an lp at one time. Listening to him today I see his influence in rockers like Springsteen, Mellencamp. He wrote direct Americana songs about ordinary people in love with ordinary people. A tinge of melancholy & sweet heartbreak in some of them that was relatable to me despite his heteronormative world view. 12ivydoor02I can remember dancing to Bad Bad LeRoy Brown; New York’s Not My Home captured a sense of loneliness & the hunger for more than home that always appealed to me. Lover’s Cross – take that Leonard Cohen🙂 Plus he had a great porn stache & his jeans did his package justice. 12doors01Next to him on the shelf is Dave Crosby’s If I Could Only Remember My Name – this was an lp I played constantly. The wordless harmonies are out of this world, Cowboy Movie is a great story song. It falls after CSNY make their big splash when everyone was making solo lps. His was perhaps the most compelling as it didn’t fall into trying to be a pop success. The songs aren’t radio fodder, aren’t Neil Young type rockers either.12whitedoor04Crosby’s life was a druggie mess which might account for the lack of focus on the lp itself. It was decades before he did an okay follow up. Prison time clean him up. Rumours of his bisexuality were not confirmed in his first autobiography😦 but he did father Melissa Etheridge’s child, so maybe. Yet another 60’s star sporting a great porn stache & who, as one time, looked fine in snug jeans.

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Fluent

Singa sat in front of the monitor. Brin stood behind him.

‘I’m not too close, am I?’

‘No such thing.’

Singa put his palm over the cursor guide and the hard drive started.

‘Now let’s just see what we can tap into this time.’

They had searched the various records that were in the both sub frames of the compsystem of the Monastery. Nothing was ever found that pre-dated their arrival.

Once they had had found some ancient blue prints of the the Br’n Pavilion that showed that the Sanctuary ruins were merely the tip of a vast structure that was no longer there.

Singa tapped at his key pad. ‘Okay we’re in once again. Right where we left off before.’

The screen filled with a series of icons. The ones they had examined were edged in green and there were none un-edged.

‘Let’s try …’ Brin closed his eyes and touched the screen. ‘This one.’

He opened his eyes and he had put his finger on the icon that opened the Kitchen Files.

Singa opened them.

‘It’s the operations manual for the falfa oasts, recipes, information on Preserves.’

‘Let’s see Preserves.’

Singa opened that file. There was a brief animated display of  the importance of jar washing.

‘Turn up the volume and replay that bit.’

‘Yes sir.’

‘What is he saying?’

‘He’s saying boil the jars at …’

“So you understand what he is saying?’

‘Of course. As easily as I understand you.’

‘But I don’t understand it.’

‘Well well.’ Singa clicked on the file history.‘You are right. This is in Tr’gila. I’m fluent in other languages I didn’t even notice.’

‘That is your field. Records. So you didn’t even notice did you? And why would that instruction be in Tr’gila?’soon

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November 1 – 30 Participating NaNoWriMo

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December – Thursday Dec 1st – Toronto, 8 pm, Buddies in Bad Times Theatre, 12 Alexander St.divine

http://www.queerslam.com/season-3-dates.html

6DC0301

Early 2017:

my first local feature in over a year: location date TBA

it came in

April season 3 FINALS – Friday April 15th Buddies in Bad Times – early show – 7pm startgames

http://www.queerslam.com/season-3-dates.html

June 2-4: attending: Capturing Fire 2017 –

newcap

https://capfireslam.org

check out these poets from Capturing Fire 2015: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCx5KD1eDccdjdTdQ28kZRNg

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