Antony and the Johnsons

Some voices have the fragility of a steel heart being broken – Antony possesses one of those aching voices that verge on satori. I have a couple of this groups cd’s: The Crying Light; I am a bird Now.

wettersocks too wet socks

This is emo notched to the nth degree. Slowly paced chamber pop that almost strays into leider with the tightly controlled placement of layered instruments, pauses and effects. Over-the-top and understated at the same time. Unlike, say, Florence & the Machine which is never understated.

greensock one wet sock

Emotionally resonant, uplifting and meditative at the same time. Intense and commanding, draining and compelling. I love these cd’s and this deliberate control of what we hear.

wetsock looking at the wet stars?

Back in December 2008 I saw a video for one of their songs and it captured me instantly. Now I can’t remember what song it was but early in 2009 I spotted the cd’s on sale at HMV and bought them. Antony also does the amazing Knockin’ on Heaven’s door in I’m Not There, Todd Haynes weird Dylan tribute movie.

Antony also sings with the techno/dance band ‘Hercules and Love Story’ – great stuff too but more about them when I get the ‘h’ shelf.

soon02

May 26 – attending – King John – 2 pm – Stratford

bownew

June 6-8 – attending – Bloody Words

June 23-27 – attending – Manuscript to Book – Loyalist Summer Arts – Belleville, Ont https://www.facebook.com/events/589522924455695/

Loyalist

Loyalist sky

August 28-31 – attending – FanExpo Canada http://www.fanexpocanada.com

samples

The Reparation Room

 

he acted as if I owed him something

for the way he was treated as a child

by someone I didn’t know

in a city I’ve never been in

because I was old white guy

I was the one to blame

I was the one who had to dig down

to make it up to him

money wasn’t going to cut it

he wanted to see me hurt

as much as he had been hurt

there was no way to defuse this anger

to step back from the situation

no way was I capable of making him feel whole

 

was the trade off

the memory of his pain

in return for the memory

of the pain he might inflict upon me

how many times

would he have to seek this opportunity

how many times would he have to strike out

before he realized causing pain

never removes the pain one feels

making me hurt as much as he hurts

won’t change his hurt

might numb him to it for a moment

then he’ll have to live with what he’s done

what he feels compelled to keep on doing

hitting out spitting out taking it out

till it would finally consume him

 

I don’t know how to lead him out of this cage

can’t tell him he’s a slave

to a problem I didn’t cause

I refuse to be held responsible for it

yet cannot deny his right

to seek some sort of reparation

for his past

I’m not the one to apologize

not the one to pull out my wallet to pay him off

I have to witness his struggle

acknowledge it

know that I can’t undo

what has been done

try not to add to it in any way

but it seems no matter what I do

I add to it

just being present brings it all back to him

not being present

seems to him like I’m hiding out of guilt

neither of us can leave the room

 hall loyalist there’s a novel at the end of that tunnel

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