Re-creation

 

Another of the 48 Laws of Power by Robert Green as a writing prompt.

30Jn1601

Law 25: Recreate Yourself

this is how I started

a small fear filled child

moved across Canada

for a decade

a new home every year

each new home a new opportunity

but never enough time to develop

to make friends

finally settling

the only child

a small fear filled child

discovering things about himself

that weren’t what he observed

in other children

children with rough tumble values

gender roles unquestioned

reinforced by parental

scholastic approval

mine rarely reinforced

opting for invisibility

those moments when I was observed

winning an art prize

flunking miserably at math

art devalued

math venerated

the first invention

the arty poet uninterested in approval

bravado rather than conviction

the shield of music

flowed into the the drunk

the numbed to identity

the first man on man sex

wanting more

but with more to hide

inventing what we did drunk sex

so it doesn’t count

the writer published

the man escapes from

with his life

not another new world

once again the new face in town

remade into the timid bar hopper

manic dancer

reinvented as the sober housemate

the lover for life

the return to the word

the uneducated director

set designer lighting sound tech

discarded to be replaced

by the novelist poet

spoken-word performer

spun into the out spoken queer

re-created once more

by cultural assumptions about age

not seeking to change from

hot dad to grandpa fetish

enjoying some of that

to bother with reinventing once again

go with the flow

get on with the show

and tell you

I’m still here

and not the queer

you want to invent me as

30Jn1602

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