Not only is “Kiss Me Kiss Me Kiss Me” the title of a Cure song but also the subject of a recent Disability After Dark by Andrew Gurza, in which he talks about, of all things, kissing. He explores both the emotional and the physical aspects of of kissing. I could help but think of some old Star Trek episode in which Kirk is asked ‘What is this thing you humans call kissing?’
Movies usually make kissing seem so simple – that is if the actors actual kiss at all or if they are even kissing one another when that close up happens. Faces meet, lips meet – suddenly two actors of radically different heights are the same height when those lips meet. Rarely do their noses, glasses, shoulder bags, purses, knapsacks, hat brims or, in some cases, body bulges (stomach, torpedo breasts) present a problem. Clearly everyone’s breath is minty fresh as well.
For Andrew there is rarely the impulse kiss – he has to navigate his body into the best position in his wheelchair for anything more than a quick kiss. At least he likes being kissed 🙂 Which leads me into the emotional impact. I’ve been with men who will do nearly everything except kiss – they don’t like that mushy stuff, They don’t even want small talk about the weather. Opening the door is all the consent they need. It’s as if they are saving the kiss for true love.
Of course the nature of the kiss is also a consent. A kiss on the hand may be quite continental but isn’t a round the world passport.
you can’t see me as you read this
but I am kissing you
it won’t last long
a quick press of lips
maybe if you are bold
a slip of the tongue
you may never see me
you may only see these words on the page
it doesn’t matter who wrote this poem
to give you this sweetest of kisses
so relish this moment
of someone kissing you exactly
the way you like to be kissed
does it make you uncomfortable
do these words
cause you some sort of sexual anxiety
might they erode your self confidence
as it becomes clear
that I’m the same sex as you
tricking you to engage in this kiss
because when you started to read
this is not what you expected – is it
and now I’ve made you uneasy
or maybe merely impatient with
how foolish this piece is to think
it can involve the reader at such a level
now my hands move
they aren’t resting casually on your arm
there is a pressure of pleasure
as I feel your body
as you move closer to me
you sense that I’m aroused by you
and you are responding
more than you expected
you can stop me by leaving this page
you can change the direction
by changing my sex or yours
perhaps that works for a moment
but you know
we are a same sex couple now
about engage in more than a kiss
one of us unbuttons
unzips
the other
does it matter who
you’ve never done anything like this before
or claim to have
never done anything like this before
whereas I have done it many times
when anyone reads this
they have sex with me
I’m easy
I make only one demand
that you finish what you start
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