He is totally nondescript – which fits the description – friendly – well-liked in the community – he could be me – except I’m not alleged, accused. Cishetero friends have asked me about this shocking serial killer – how could he have gotten away with it so long? did you know him? I’m no criminal profiler. No I didn’t know him but it’s not impossible that I met him. I do have friends who have meet him, who have had sex with him. They were stunned as the news unfolded.
I try to answer as best I can and resist saying ‘you don’t give a flying fuck about me or any of the men he allegedly killed – you want sensationalism not the sorrow’ Each new clue is headline fodder not a step toward completion – whatever the hell completion is.
There is so much speculation about how the police conducted this investigation that sounds like people have expected real police procedure to be just like CSI, or any number of other TV crime shows, most based on USA laws not the Canadian criminal code. There are conjectures about the actual evidence as well – TV makes it look like all one needs is the right electronic microscope, a good search engine & ta-da incontestable proof of guilt – provided of course that some technical rule of arrest, of evidence gathering hasn’t sullied things.
These are the victims (so far) Selim Esen, 44, Andrew Kinsman, 49, Majeed Kayhan, 58, Soroush Mahmudi, 50, and Dean Lisowick, 47. I’ll say their names. My great fear is that there’ll more to add before this investigation is over 😦 His will probably never be forgotten so there’s no need for me to mention it.
What I Did For Sex
let him think I was falling in love
pretended to be drunk
said I’ve never done anything like this before
walked three blocks at three a.m.
in pouring rain
flew from one coast to the other
said yes when I meant to say maybe
said maybe when I meant to say no
said no till the first kiss
didn’t shower for three days as requested
lied about my age
agreed to let him take pictures
pretended to be straight
watched a direct to dvd
Steven Seagal comedy
‘wading pool paratroopers 2’
pretended to believe he was straight
listened to music I hated – Diana Krall
wore knee-high athletic socks
apologized when it wasn’t my fault
watched hetero porn with him –
spoke tres mauvais French
ignored the kitty litter underfoot
let him take my socks off with his teeth
put my feet in his face
took showers together
exclaimed it’s the biggest one I’ve ever seen
let the dog stay in the room
stood in smokey bars for endless hours
HotDamn! It’s A Queer Slam
June 8-9 – Capturing Fire 2018 – Washington D.C. (flight & hotel already booked) capfireslam.org