Not Relevant
why I lost interest
wasn’t relevant
neither of us was that invested
or at least I wasn’t
he was a good technical fuck
he made it clear how much he enjoyed
the time we spent together
but as much as he filled me up
he never fulfilled me
he was chatty enough
but conversations went his way
he listened to his voice
his point of view
would ask me the same questions
give his answer
talk over mine
so I lost interest
I blocked him on dating sights
rather than go into why
I lost interest
why I found his paranoia
around identity theft
made me distrustful of him
he knew too much for the innocent
his racism couldn’t be confronted
as he’d merely repeat his view
as if I had said nothing
to call him out
meant that I was the racist
that was a few years ago
I heard nothing from him
then one day there he was
on my door step
having changed his online identity
he’d made contact with me
never let on who he was
did a few things differently
gave me his email
which he’d never done before
though I still didn’t know his real name
the date was set
and there he was
with a slightly smug smile
I wasn’t flattered
but was amused
he was still a good technical fuck
friendly enough
not a listener
talked over my replies
to questions he’d asked
when he left
I blocked him again
somethings don’t change
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