Has this ever happened to you? It’s a bitterly cold, but dry, night & you’re just relaxing after supper & checking your email when the phone rings. Oh yes, rings, my landline. How quaint, a landline. I answer & it is a fwb ghost from the past. He was in the neighbourhood & could we meet for a chat. I think a moment & say sure – in five minutes at the Greenwood Station.
I get dressed, walk over & he’s pacing, masked. in front on the station. I recognize him by the pace & the hefty backpack that was his trademark style when we first met some, I’d say, nearly twenty years ago. We do a loop south down one block & up the next & back to the station.
We first the ‘catch up’ – he’s in the same profession but now in the private sector – from Crown Prosecutor to criminal lawyer for hire. He called on a whim, a polite term for ‘horny’ & had been meaning to call me for some time now & felt this was the right time. He apologized for our last conversation, which I didn’t recall at all, (but which I did blog about) & also for the way things ended many years ago, which was essentially him disappearing.
https://topoet.ca/2015/05/08/the-ghost/
He wants to renew our sexual acquaintance. I am flattered but not that interested. There other men whom I have been unable to see thanks covid who I would much rather renew acquaintances with 🙂 Being the polite Canadian & feeling a little sorry for him I say I’ll think about it. He wants to drop by now that he’s in the neighbourhood. I firmly decline & we part company.
An hour or so later he calls again to apologize for coming on so strong earlier. I am flattered but indifferent. Beside, to me, this is a red flag of neediness. I say no problem & agree that he can me later in the week, knowing that if he sticks to his usual form I’ll hear from him in 2025 at the earliest.

Boo Hoo Hoo
the fact is I don’t care
I know this comes as a surprise
to make matters worse
I never did care
I listened out of politeness
struck the right pose of concern
a sweet smile of encouragement
my look of worried affection
that you found so comforting
allowed you to feel cared for
that someone loves you
but to be honest
I never gave a shit
about your tedious victories
good job reviews weight loss
or whatever cheered you up that day
I also never gave a shit about
your weary tribulations either
that diagnoses
that lost wallet
replacing all your credit cards and ids
oh boo hoo hoo
stop acting so shocked
life happens to poor little you
stop dragging your tired trite daily events
in front of me
the thought of me hearing about them
puts me to sleep
the sleep of the righteous
<>
I fake human compassion
only too well
when I want to slap you
up the side of the life
take that drivel somewhere else
the sex isn’t worth it
can’t remember if it ever was
so please shut the fuck up
I don’t care
no one does
oh boo hoo hoo
<>
that’s not what you expected to hear
it’s not my worry
that your cellphone headset never worked right
that your mother is dying
that you love those new shoes
that you had some deep insight
to your inner tender core
you feel on top of the world
getting ahead of the curve
whatever
so whoop-de-do
who gives a flying fuck
certainly not me
so wake up and smell me gone
oh boo hoo hoo

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