The Thrill is Gone
he was bored
& looking for sex
as if sex was a solution
so far
nothing had lived up
to his expectations
his profile listed
his interests
it was like the index
to a gay sex manual
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at nineteen
he wanted to try them all
while he was still young enough
to enjoy them all
before he was bored
by them all
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what I hadn’t tried
of his endless index
had never appealed to me
at any age
many I had tried a few times
had no interest in exploring them again
even though
he wanted an older guide
who was opened-minded
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we chatted a awhile
because he liked my dick pic
when it became clear
I had boundaries
my disinterest in
repeating what bored me
made him bitter
judgemental
the less defensive I became
the more defensive he became
but at least
he was no longer bored
This is based on real life events & in some ways is why I bother with any online gay cruising sites – I find things like this amusing & sometime a little puzzling. These sites are also a way of passing the time when I have ten minutes with little to do. Like this guy here I was bored, but not really looking for sex just a reminder that sex was possible 🙂
I saw his shopping list of sexual delights & thought, well there’s a few things I enjoy here but the rest isn’t on my menu plan. I wasn’t even curious enough to look at his pics but he contacted me via the site’s chat line. More info was exchanged & the more that was exchanged the less interested I was. I even asked him if he had actually read my profile – if he had he would have known what he was asking about me.
One of the ‘code’ words I watch for in profiles is ‘open-minded’ – which boils down to kink: diapers, chastity cages, that sort of thing. If one isn’t interested you become close-minded. Similar to saying ‘no’ to a drink, to say ‘no’ to kink can make some guys defensive – as if that ‘no’ is a judgment on their choices.
Over the years I’ve learned that many men on line are looking for attention not contact. His laundry list was extensive enough that there was something for everyone there. It struck me as indecisive, which seemed natural at his age, too. My other caveat pops up here, the one that says: men lie on line. There is no way for me to verify his age, his profile pics, or his shopping list. The twenty or so minutes we chatted was enough role playing for me.
TOpoet 