So I’m editing this old short story, from the mid 80’s, so I can air it here on the blog & I get distracted by this show of force in the US capital. Do I want to see what they do or do I want to correctly punctuate a sentence? As they climb over barricades & breaking windows I’m breaking down paragraphs. Are they protestors or terrorists. A rampage of white entitlement that eventually fizzles out. No one even shit on the podium. Death by stress & no change in the results, the forgone conclusions.
In my story there is a change in names, a clarification of motivations but the same result. The story results as comedic as the clumsy crowd of echos lurching up & down the Capital building stairs, bumping into each other as they attempt to get the perfect backgrounds for selfies of their righteous bravery. Everyone seems disappointed at the lack of blood on the floor, that there isn’t any burning buildings for truly dramatic context to tweet.
Already that narrative is being rewritten so that every side is at fault as they insist they are upholding the fine principles of democracy, capitalism & freedom of selfie speech. My characters don’t have that much freedom, even as I change their size & shape they tell me what they should do in the situation I created for them. I allow them to be frail, vacillating & only threats to themselves. As much as they are under my control I end up surrendering them to spellcheck & word count – or should I say word re-count. Even when the story is finished it is not certifiable 🙂 but part 1 was posted here with my music blog on Thursday. https://topoet.ca/2021/01/06/jonesing-for-joplin/
Satisfied
in movies about a future
with few survivors
that stumble across an abandoned store
with canned food on the shelves
not much
watching we think
how desperate they feel
how sad
so when i go into a supermarket
today
i think
even if what want isn’t there
there is still lots there
there is enough
<>
at one time
thank you
wasn’t enough
there had to be praise
adulation
thank you
didn’t go far enough
i had to be grateful
that i was even allowed
to say thank you
<>
i didn’t look
when the food was served
i kept my eyes unfocused
as i ate
i didn’t ask what was on the plate
i didn’t look to cut
i trusted
each morsel was what
i was supposed to have
i didn’t question
i ate
taste was surpressed
pleasure was not the point
the point was to eat
whatever was served
not to judge
or comment
to eat silently
then
get the fuck out
so the next person could
be satisfied

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